THE ELOHIM ARE ABOUT TO RETURN: We have inherited lies from our Fathers (spiritual and governmental leaders)

My readers who have been following me for the past couple decades know that I’ve often questioned “the Elohim” of the the Jewish Bible’s book of Genesis because Scripture provides scant information on who or what the Elohim are. YHVH, the King of the Universe, and obviously King of the Elohim has only revealed a fraction of who He is through the prophets. He commanded the prophet Daniel to “close up the book” and keep certain things secret until the Last Days when knowledge shall be increased. It would appear from all prophetic indications that the Last Days are at the door and our government and spiritual leaders can no longer avoid revealing the information that they have long held back from the people.

Before I get going here I just want to state one thought. G-d/Allahim/Elohim, aka YHVH is going to have a lot of explaining to do to our species he/they created. We have been given very limited information go on. We are a created species by a greater life form known as the Elohim who have the rule over our species and as such we are given instructions from them on how to navigate these lives we have been gifted with.

Our human response is often to disbelieve and rebel because we think we deserve the right to think for ourselves and live our lives the way we want. I do not think there is anything wrong with deciding how we all want to live our own lives, but this fact remains that we are told that this higher life form known as the “Elohim” created our species, from apes it would seem if we are to believe The Sumerian Tablets that use the same names of Adam and Eve and were written thousands of years before Abraham and Sarah began keeping a record of their departure from an alleged multi-theistic system to a mono-theistic system. It would appear the Elohim have power over us. Do we have a choice to obey or not. Yes, we can disobey but with consequence of destruction apparently so that’s not much of a choice.

For myself, I try to keep an open mind about the things that have not been fully disclosed to us, and I choose to understand that there is a higher life form that does have the rule over humanity. I do my best as a created child of this higher life form to be respectful and loving in return as a child is to their parents. I would suggest all of humanity keep an open mind about what has not been disclosed to us. It’s a suggestion BECAUSE there might just be a few surprises revealed when Daniel’s shut up books of revelations are opened and knowledge is increased in these last of the Last Days. Could it be the knowledge that has been sealed till the Last Days of mankind on the planet will be the revelation of EXACTLY WHO G-D IS, WHERE G-D CAME FROM, AND IF G-D HAD A DIVINE ORIGIN SIMILAR TO OUR OWN SPECIES. G-d’s creation has many unanswered questions and better than setting oneself up for disappointment, better to keep a positive attitude and open mind. I always joke and say, “If the Messiah want to return to the earth in spaceship (chariot of fire) with Mohammed and a little green man as co-pilots I’m all for it! Just please show up soon and get this Endtimes show on the road”. πŸ™‚

The Sumerian Tablets, as it would seem, are the original Scriptures (original written records of this planet) written thousands of years before the children of Abraham (the Jews) created their oral Torah and eventually wrote it all down. The original stories of the creation of Adam and Eve, the garden of Eden, the flood of Noah’s time… it’s all there in The Sumerian Tablets. I don’t say this to say that there is anything wrong with the faith of Judaism, but I am saying that Judaism has it’s start with the Anunnaki (a species of Elohim?) who, according to The Sumerian Tablets, genetically created mankind through a hybridization of their own species with the existing upright human-like creatures on this planet. I can’t say the Anunnakim are the Elohim spoken of in the Genesis account of creation, but it is more information about something we know little about.

We are truly the genetic and biological offspring of the Elohim and this is why Pslams 82:6 declares “Ye are gods”, and Yeshua recited the verse in John 10:34 in defense of Him being G-d incarnated into a human body, one of three times YHVH did this according to Scripture–#1 with Abraham when G-d took on human flesh when talking about destroying Sodom, #2 when G-d took on human flesh to wrestle with Ya’acov (Jacob/Israel). #3 There are many times throughout Scripture where G_d incarnates Himself as “the angel of the Lord”.

Former Israeli space security chief Haim Eshed says, “Extraterrestrials exist, and American President Trump knows about it. A galactic federation has been waiting for humans to reach a stage where we will understand… “.

“A galactic federation” would seem to define many different extra-terrestrial species. Did G-d create all those species like He created us? We don’t know. Perhaps that is part of what is sealed up till the Endtimes that will be revealed directly by these Elohims or Extra-Terrestrials themselves. Keep a reasonable and open mind about such things as we have no ideas what secrets G-d told Daniel to seal up till the Last Days.

YHVH’s prophetic hourglass for humanity is almost empty. We are on the verge of all things being fulfilled. That being said, I would dare to declare that humans have now “reached a state where we will understand”. We have had decades of preparation from tv programming and movies about all kinds of space travel, and aliens. BTW, they don’t called it television “programming” for nothing. You ARE being programmed.

Our world government will not tell us everything they know about extraterrestrials because they want “men’s hearts to fail them” when they see them “coming upon the earth”. My final thought is that the extraterrestrials are going to be similar to the Serpent in the garden, or demonic entities that will come with many “lying signs and wonders”. Just some food for thought.



Before I begin: A note to my readers…

This blog is deeply personal. Yeah, I know my whole website is deeply personal, but this post is extra personal and is about a girl named Arlene Phyllis Hogan. For good for bad, for better or for worse she changed my life. She was, and I guess is, the love of my life. My love for her almost ended my life at age 16 when she broke off our engagement. We reconnected once, but then she stopped corresponding. I still have love in my heart for her, but my lesson with her is that familiar saying: If you love someone, set them free. If they don’t come back to you they never were yours…

I have to insert a little item before I continue with our history. I watch a tv series called Outlander that I’ll go into more detail about later in this post, but the other night I was watching a rerun from the 4th season of the series called, “False Bride”. A main character of the series named Roger MacKenzie falls in love with a red-headed girl. He has marriage in mind, but she wants to have sex before marriage. I broke down and cried realizing once again this series speaks to the events of my own life. The red-headed gal I loved and wanted to marry did the same thing to me when I had an official engagement ring in my pocket ready and waiting for just the perfect moment to unfold so I could ask her. I say “official” because I’d given her a gift of a Krementz gold bracelet in 1978 as a “promise bracelet”. I considered us engaged to be married already. It was just between us till we were old enough to make it official a couple years later when I turned 18. Yeah, so this episode, “False Bride” really added a new title to and old memory. I broke down and cried. I guess I cried because my situation didn’t follow the same future path that the characters in my show did. They eventually patched things up and were married and lived happily ever after. Phyllis went off and married some guy she hardly knew a month after I turned 18. Maybe she ever truly loved me? Maybe I was just a way to get out of her mother’s house? Well, she got out by marrying a horribly abusive man and has lived miserably ever after. Why she has stayed with him I can only assume that he has threatened to kill her if she ever leaves. You can see the stress in her face. At least I can. She wouldn’t look so stressed and care worn if she would have married me. Ah, well….on with the story…

I met Phyllis when I was 14 and she was 13. We spent a school year getting to know each other, and lost touch over the summer break, but then a friend of me handed me a note with a phone number on it the first week of school, saying it was from some girl who knew me and wanted me to give her a call. I called and was surprised to find out it was the red-headed girl from Alex G. Barret Middle School.

Phyllis sent me this photo of herself on her birthday October 23, 2008. She looks just as lovely as she did when I met her when she was 13. She wasn’t arrayed in fancy pearls back then πŸ™‚ Where’d you get those pretty pearls? You are a gemologist so I guess you’ve collected a lot of jewelry. I wonder if you still have the Krementz gold promise bracelet I gave you before giving you an official engagement ring.

[Edit 16 November 2020: Today I heard the song “Golden Ring” sung by Tammy Wynette and George Jones, the song G-d used to draw me too Him after you dumped me and I spend two weeks in the hospital after trying to suicide. I sat in my bedroom looking at your engagement ring and listening to that song and G-d spoke to me and I began reading the Bible. Not my condensed stories Children’s Bible, but I purchased a regular full version Bible and read it through 3 times. Then in April when I turned eighteen I moved back to Kentucky to live with my grandmother as planned and had begun talking to you on the phone wanting to eventually work towards us meeting and me giving you your ring, but things didn’t happen the way I wanted. I don’t blame you, but G-d had other plans for me and for you. You ran off with some guy you didn’t even know and married him just weeks after my arrival. When I found out you married I was so shocked and hurt. Here I was still following the plan we made before my family ever left Kentucky and you rejected it and look how your life turned out. A hellish marriage with a severely controlling and abusive man, no children. He don’t allow you to have a car or your own life. I’m so sorry Phyllis. I know you have suffered greatly at his hands and now you don’t have your mother for consolation. I know she your rock during your marriage. Now your rock must be Yeshua the Messiah. Had I had an inkling that anything like this would have ever happened to you I would have run away from home and married you before age 18. My mistake was being the good boy always wanting to do what was good and right. I believe that all things work together for good for those who love G-d. I hope you love G-d, Phyllis. (end of edit)

I know Ireland is a big place. Her ancestors and mine both came from there before landing in America. Mine left Scotland to hide out in Ireland after the Battle of Culloden in 1745 to escape The Clearances where many Scottish families were genocided by the British for being connected to the battle. Could Phyllis and I have shared another lifetime together in the 1700’s? It’s a nice idea that fuels the imagine for the book I’m still writing about our life together. I have to admit for this part of my epic biographic novel was inspired by the Outlander Series created by Diana Gabaldon where my poor heart imagines us as the starcrossed couple James Alexander Malcom McKenzie Fraser and Claire Beauchamp Randall Fraser. In the series though I have the red hair and Phyllis has my dark hair lol. As souls have no sex perhaps the roles were reversed back in the day? Regardless, it’s a beautiful love story filled with all the drama and excitement of Scotland of the 1700’s when the British were taking Scotland by force as part of their “United Kingdom” that put an end to the Kings of Scotland. It’s a series full of Scottish history that Scottish people in Scotland even love to watch and they learn things about their history they didn’t know. Diana Gabaldon actually has written one of my ancestors into her books from where the series was created. My Scottish ancestor did not make the cut for scenes in the series, but it’s really an erie connection having one of my own ancestor’s in a series that I’m so drawn to. I secretly hope Phyllis has been watching the series too and views like I do in my imagine as our love story being played out in another lifetime. This is a right nice clip that is a bit of a trailer for the series that summarizes the first two seasons of the series

I believe in destiny. I cannot deny she was drawn to contact me for a reason. She should have went on with her high school years and forgot about me, but she didn’t. There was something that inspired her to call my old friend Sammy Murphy and give him her number for me to call. How she ever remembered his name I’ll never know. I think she must have liked me a lot before I ever knew it.

We spoke on the phone a lot and one day the suggestion came up, her’s or mine I don’t remember, but we were gonna see each other again and I said I could ride my 10-speed over to her house for a visit. I met her mom and her sister Linda. Her mother was a red head like my mom too. We spent an afternoon sitting the front porch swing flipping through the pages of our yearbook and reminiscing about all the characters and personalities we had gone to school with. I have to admit that I’d had no thoughts about her as I had been kinda seeing another girl, but that having ended and with no commitments I found my heart attracted to Phyllis and I know the feeling was mutual. We fell in love.

We saw a lot of each other that fall of 1978. She’d taken on an after school job a small ice cream parlor own by Grover and Geneva Davis. We used to call Mrs. Davis “Old 95” cause she had this amusing habit of throwing her head back to look through her glasses that were down on her nose to see the buttons on the cash register and ring “Ninetyyyy-five”, the price of a Buddy Bar or something. lol How coincidental that Geneva passed away at age 95. See her obituary.

To make a long story short, my mother remarried and decided we would all move to Florida and after 14 months of dating and becoming secretly engaged with a “engagement bracelet” (I guess it was like a promise bracelet) Phyllis and I were forced apart. If I hadn’t been such a well-trained “good boy” I would have lied and told my mom that Phyllis was pregnant with my child and we can’t move and we could have been married and while a deception it would have accomplished the salvation of the only love of my life that left me for another when she claims she didn’t think I was being true to her and she dumped me and when she would not take me back I lost my will to live and suicided. Two weeks later after getting out of the hospital and her mom and my mom talking about what Phyllis’s actions had caused she knew how serious I was and loved her and there was no other and she agreed to take me back. My mother arranged a trip at holiday time that December and she helped me finance an engagement ring that I had in my pocket to give to Phyllis at the perfect moment.

That perfect moment didn’t happen. I thought it was going to happen when her mother ran an errand to the store real quick and I though now was that moment to present her with the ring. She asked me to come upstairs to her bedroom. She went in and flopped on the bed as I stood in the doorway ready to present her with the ring (that I still have), but I was stopped dead in my tracks when she opened her mouth before I could and said something that ruined everything. I’m not gonna repeat it here because it was too private and too heartbreaking for me, but what she asked me broke my heart all over again. Well, time rolls on and heals all wounds they say. When you love someone the forgiveness never ends, until the day they cause you not to love them anymore. Well, a broken heart doesn’t mean you don’t love someone anymore. It means just the opposite. I’ve never stopped loving the one girl that was meant for me that was to have my children that never got the chance to be born. That’s okay though. She married the wrong man, a horribly abusive man and she is afraid he will murder her if she tries to leave him, so out of fear she has stayed with him all these years.

My heart healed some in the year that followed that disappointing December when I didn’t give her the ring, but that ring was still in my pocket and I held onto it for the purpose of trying again when I moved back to Kentucky at age 18 with plans to win her back and marry her. April 1982 finally rolled around and I flew back to Kentucky to live with my grandmother. I flew the day before my 18th birthday because I wanted one of my Granny’s homemade birthday cakes she would always have for me as a kid. I called Phyllis at her mother’s house and let her know I’d returned to Kentucky and why I returned. She seemed happy to talk to me and I was encouraged that I’d finally get to give her that ring I’d been holding onto for almost two years. I felt we were making progress talking, but I was taking it easy considering how she’d already hurt me more than once.

One night, unannounced she and her sister Linda showed up at the farm and came a knocking at the door, but my grandmother forbade me from going to the door. Because I grew up programed by my abusive mother to obey or face dire consequences, although my heart ached to answer the door and have her and her sister come in and meet my grandmother, the “good boy” I was programmed to be dared not go against my grandmother’s wishes. Growing up with a mentally and physically abusive mother really get’s you brainwashed to obey and respect authority. I dared not cross my grandmother. I guess my grandmother was fearing I was gonna run off and marry Phyllis and leave her, but that wasn’t my plan at all. I was hoping we’d marry and we’d share my bedroom in my grandmother’s house and live there till we could one day set up house of our own somewhere else. Well, anyway, I guess Phyllis didn’t like the outcome of her surprise visit, and it proved to be another huge stumbling block for our reconciliation. It wasn’t until years later that I found out that it was only a matter of weeks after that night that Phyllis up and married Patrick Hickey right in my own backyard nearly. I hope one day she explains what the hell was going on with her that she wanted to have sex before marriage and ran off and married some guy she hardly knew before her and I could get our plans figured out. So, anyway, like the words of the haunting Randy Travis song, “There was a time when she was mine in 1982.”

She’s paid a heavy price for her mistakes so I’m not looking to rub her nose in it. Now her rock, her mother is deceased and she has nobody to talk to so she just plays the role of wife with her abuser and honors her wedding vow “till death do us part”. I just hope it’s his death and not her death and that I get to see her again this side of heaven.


Phyllis, I mailed your birthday card today 19 October 2020. The card is a mess. I didn’t know what to say or how to say it and the pen wouldn’t write on the shiny card surface so I switched to a red permanent marker…ugh. There was hardly room to write pleasant and cohesive thoughts and well wishes so I hope that first birthday card in over 30 years will not frighten you like it’s from crazed stalker lol. I just love you and I always have and there’s not been a year go by that I didn’t remember your birthday with joy and tears of what should have been.

I hope the card gets there before or on the 23rd. I hope Patrick doesn’t see it and get nosey demanding to know who it’s from and throw a fit. In my heart I cannot apologize for this action that could cause you some trouble with him. I don’t want you to suffer any consequences, but you’ve left me no other way to make contact. Joan was b*tch to me on when we exchanged messages. You’ve made the best of your mistake by staying married to an abusive man you should have never married and that makes me proud of you because I know if it would have been me you married I’d have a faithful and true love for life. I think I still do, but you are just in a horrible situation that I’m probably making worse and for that I do apologize. You married the wrong man. You deprived us both of the children we were supposed to have, the ones G-d had for us. I still have the ungodly expensive engagement ring I never gave to you the day you broke my heart at your mother’s house when you tried to entice me to have sex before marriage. I had it in my pocket that day and my mother was expecting to gather me up that day after our visit and hear the good news, but instead you crushed me by not honoring the sacredness of marriage. Well, see what you got yourself into? I’m not blaming or shaming. I’m just saying what you already know. We would have had a beautiful life… My grandmother was agreeable to let us build a home on her 20 acres down by the lake and eventually you would have owned and drove you own car to work at Prospect Jewelers. We were young, yes, but we were in love and right for each other. I don’t know if you’ll ever humble yourself to tell me all the issues you had going on that made you up and marry that abusive controlling asshole who’s made your life a living nightmare. I know you are scared he’ll try to kill you if you leave him so I know all you can do is honor the vow you took, “till death do us part”, but I hope it will be his death and not your own that will gain you freedom from the prison you created. If you haven’t watched it already, get a DVD set of the Outlander series and watch it and I know you’ll realize why I’m so attached to this series with Jamie and Claire. In my heart it’s like you and I in another lifetime. It’s been the inspiration for my life story/novel combination where I place you and I in the civil war era via reincarnation, and also have our present day lives with the one exception that you married me instead of Patrick. I’ve never loved another. I still love you. I always will. In my heart I imagine you feel the same and all it would take is one look into each other’s eyes to confirm it that our love never died, but just got put on hold while you went on a bad detour. We will probably have to wait to see each other on the other side because I believe very much so that the Son of G-d is set to return to this earth next year. I hope you will read my website and learn what you need to do to gain salvation. I’ll write it all out for you on this page later as I make updates. I want to see you in heaven. These years of separation from the only girl I ever loved have not been the happiest and an eternity without you I can’t imagine. So, happy 56th birthday and I hope to hear from you….

TO BE CONTINUED…. Sometime after the 23’rd of October 2020

UPDATE: 23/10/2020 4:25pm pst – Well, it’s not after the 23’rd of October here in California, but it is in Australia! lol Do I get credit for it being after October 23rd somewhere? lol

I’ve put the Shabbes bread in the oven that’s been rising all afternoon. I fed a sourdough starter all week long, even took it outside onto the porch to gather some natural wild desert yeast for that local flavor. I’ve heard the natural yeast in the air in San Francisco makes the best sourdough bread in the world. I’m making two loaves of cinnamon-raisin bread for a friend (I don’t eat gluten because it causes arthritis). I made one loaf of gluten-free buckwheat bread for me. I purchase the whole buckwheat and turn it into flour in seconds in the NutraBullet. A little yeast, water and dash of sugar and salt and it makes the best non-gluten bread. BTW, don’t let the name “Buckwheat” fool you. I have no idea why they named it Buckwheat because it is not from the wheat family and has no gluten in it. Oh! The rabbit holes of story telling I go down sometimes! lol

Phyllis, I wanted to say Happy Birthday on your birthday today. I hope my card got to you without Patricks notice and no problems were caused. It’s not my desire to cause any trouble for you or Patrick. I may not like the fact that he is with you and your marriage to him was the biggest mistake of your life in some ways, but G-d made it happen because you had to learn a lesson. I don’t say that with a mean spirit, but everything that happens in our lives G-d is behind as a teaching tool to help us elevate our souls.

You made a vow before G-d with Patrick and I support that vow. No matter how I feel, Patrick is your husband before G-d and it is my duty to respect that marriage even though my feelings are that I should have been your husband and we should be living happily ever after with grandchildren by now, a daughter named Jewel after your Father, a son named David after my Father, and who knows how many more G-d would have blessed us with. I know you said you had some medical issue that prevented you from having children, but you know what I believe about that? I believe G-d shut up your womb because you married the wrong man and having children with such an abusive man would have only been a horrible situation for you and the children, BUT, if you had children your protective motherly instinct may have given you the courage to leave Patrick to prevent the children from being abused the way Patrick has abused you over the years. He will pay for his sins on day.

Speaking of Patrick paying for his sins…. Someone else already paid for his sins and if you and I are to never meet again before our Savior returns I hold no ill will against Patrick and I would like both him and you to be saved.

You know how to pray and give your heart to G-d through Messiah Yeshua. That’s a simple task. Just a prayer to ask for forgiveness for all your sins known and unknown and ask Him to come into your heart and be your teacher and Savior. Then according to ACTS 2:38 you must be baptised in the Name of Yeshua for the remission of sins and this is when the Holy Spirit will come to dwell inside of you to lead and guide you into all truths. Yeshua made it so easy for us, for you, for Patrick. If I never see you this side of Heaven again then I do want to see you in Heaven at the Marriage Supper of the Lamb even if Patrick is there too. lol Bible says that in Heaven we are known as we are known, but we are no longer married in Heaven like we were on earth. We have a whole new understand once released from the physical bonds of mortality on this earth.

In the event though that G-d should take Patrick before the rapture happens then I’d like you to consider raising grandchildren with me. We are old enough now to be grandparents. I was born when my grandmother was 50 and she was more like a mother to me than my mom ever was. There is still that little glimmer of hope. There are so many unfortunate children with no mother or father just dying of loneliness in orphanages all over this world who would be so happy to have loving parents

Well, anyway… I hope you got my card and it did not upset you, but I hope it made your heart feel good to know that I still love you and have your best interest at heart no matter what road your life has taken or will take in the future. If love someone set them free. If they return to you they are yours. If they don’t they never were yours…

I will write more of my thoughts to you here in time. This page is going to become a journal of my thoughts about you and us and what happened that forever changed both our lives “for better or for worse”…

Joni Lamb of Daystar Ministries – Spiritual Wickedness In High Places


First I’m doing a screen grab showing the anti-Semitic response she approved from her assistant where you can see that Joni Lamb or her assistant accidently left in Joni Lamb’s approval on the reply to me. Below the screen grab I’m also publishing the full email thread which is blurry (sorry), but it’s simply there to show the proof that Joni Lamb knows my history that I am a Yeshua-believing Orthodox Jewish rabbi with Black ancestry. I don’t know if she is racist against my Black ancestry, but obviously by saying, “We pray you find Jesus the Son of the living God as your Yeshua” they are trying to shove their Lawless false christ “Jesus” down my throat as my Savior (my Yeshua). They know I’m a messianic Jewish rabbi. They know my website. I’ve tracked every page they’ve read on my site so they can’t claim ignorance that they don’t fully know I’m a part Black Messianic Jewish Orthodox Rabbi. Joni and Marcus Lamb have been accused of being racist against Blacks before and they are currently on a campaign to prove they aren’t, but their racist pandering is ridiculously transparent.

What would do you expect though from people who sell the Gospel of Yeshua to the point their net worth in 2019 was published as $10 million dollars and that even after the huge public scandal that Marcus Lamb, the husband of Joni lamb had adulterous sexual relationships with three of his female employees. Rumor has it that he is still having adulterous sex with women, but these women are paid prostitutes. Looks like Marcus learned his lesson to not have sex with regular women who will tell on him, but to have sex with women who’s job it is to keep the secrets of their sex customers.

Daystar… The so-called Christian Television Network that promotes the programming ministry of Benny Hinn’s whore Paula White that committed adultery while married to her first husband with the man who would become her second husband Randy White two years later. Yes, the well experienced adulteress , and so many very active prosperity gospel abominations, like false teacher Joyce Myers who doesn’t even believe that G-d incarnated into the person of the Messiah to save us from our sins who also lives in luxury with private jets and had vacationed in more countries than I can name and has priceless works of art in her home which she explains she needs for entertaining sinners. So sad how Christian’s are so gullible πŸ™ The one and only saving grace is that Satan still can quote and does quote Scripture even if he does try to twist its meaning. A true believer can discern the truth through all the deception and the result is they reject the Satanic Christian system. Yah is still using the stupid Devil to win souls away from the Babylonian Whore system that Marcus and Joni wholeheartedly support. For everything the Most Kodesh One of Y’israel has the Evil One has a twisted counterfeit to try to deceive the people with just the same way he tried to trip Yeshua up in the desert.

EPHESIANS 6:12 “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.”

Daystar Channel owner Marcus Lamb, his wife, and their family are technically children of the Most High Yah and as such our struggle is not against them personally because they are souls that are in desperate need of salvation especially because they are some of the biggest promoters of the false Messiah anti-Christ Catholic/Christian Babylonioan Whore/Harlot System that Yeshua pleaded about, “COME OUT OF HER MY PEOPLE”. Yeshua was specifically pleading to His people–to the Jew first, and then the gentile.

I repeat, I am not in any way attacking them personally, but I have a responsibility as Jewish teacher and prophet to instruct and give correction with the loving heart of the real Messiah of Y’israel, Yeshua HaMaschiach, not the one Yeshua prophesied of that would “come in his own name, and him you will accept”. That one they have accepted is none other than the invention of the pagan Roman Whore they named JESUS!

If Marcus and Joni Lamb continue to cling to being Foolish Virgins and lose their souls in the Lake of Fire, they will have nobody but themselves to blame at The White Throne of Judgement because they did not listen to the prophet of Yah. Instead they rejected the prophet and rejected the Truth of Torah, The Way, The Life, The Light unto our Path. The Foolish Virgin’s Lambs are devoid of the Truth of Keeping the Law. They wicked chose to be the wicked money grubbing servants of Satan, living in resplendent luxury when the Messiah spoke against the very lifestyle they life.

At the moment of updating this page (5 October 2020) I am monitoring the Daystar channel and Marcus and Joni Lamb have dropped to a new low by bringing on board Benny Hinn the biggest fraud in Christiandumb who own son has disowned him for his fraudulent dealings with the unaware mesmerized Christian’s who follow him.

Marcus and Joni are confusing the flock by teaching them that the Law was forever abolished and nailed to the cross, which is a doctrine of demons creatted by the pagan Roman Whore replacement religion to replace the Jews as the Chosen People. If I’ve said it once I’ll say it a million times, not my words, but the words of Yeshua the Messiah who said:

“Do not think that I came to abolish the Torah or the Neviim (Prophets). I did not come to abolish but to complete. For, omein, truly I say to you, until Shomayim and haaretz (Heaven and earth) pass away, not one yod (the smallest Hebrew letter “Y”), not one tag (ornamental flourish), will pass from the Torah until everything is accomplished. Therefore, whoever annuls one of the least of these mitzvot (divine commandments given by Hashem to Moshe Rebbenu) and so teaches Bnei Adam, (the Son’s of Adam) shall be called katon (least) in the Malchut HaShomayim (Kingdom of Heaven); but whoever practices and teaches them, this one will be called gadol (great) in the Malchut HaShomayim. For I say unto you that unless the Tzedek (Righteousness) of you exceeds that of the Sofrim (Saduccess) and Perushim (Pharisses), you will certainly not enter the Malchut HaShomayim.”

The Catholic Babylonian Whore removed the commandment about idols and deleted Yah’s 7th day Sabbath and instituted their own 1st day Mithras sun god day for their Sabbath and her Harlot Daughters, the Protestant church’s, went along with it all willingly. Both the Whore and Harlots invoke the aka name of Satan, “Esus” with a J–“J’Esus” and many even baptise people in the name of Jesus which is totally worthless for the forgiveness of sins as ACTS 2:38 instructs us to baptise in the Savior’s name, his real name that has meaning and power, Yeshua (Yahuah is Salvation). Jesus is a hybridized Grecco-Latin name that has absolutely no meaning in Greek or Latin as it does in Hebrew.

Sad, but true the woman with the painted eyes reminiscent of Jezebel who’s mission it was to murder the prophet Eliyahu will probably never give up her false Messiah J’Esus and repent to the legitimate Messiah of Y’israel named Yahu’sha, who came in His Father’s name Yahuah. Like many other’s Joni Lamb will probably forever reject He who came in His Father’s name in favor of the anti-Law, anti-Christ of the Whore of Babylon named J’Esus.

Why not just stop the greedy money-grubbing pretense and be done with the Babylonian pagan Roman Whore? Oh, wait, you can’t Joni because like Nicodemus you will not give up your resplendent and luxurious lifestyle to sell it all, give to the poor, and pick up your cross to follow the glorious legalistic Law Giver and King of the Universe Yahu’ah who re-incarnated into the human body of our Lord and Savior Yahu’sha HaMaschiach. Like Nicodemus, you walk away sad, but happy you keep your billion dollar empire that keeps you in the finest of clothes

Marcus and Joni Lamb could be sincere about what they profess, but the horrifying truth is that they are sincerely wrong having followed after the pagan Roman false-messiah anti-christ religious system of Satan called Christianity that names it’s Messiah “J’Esus” in opposition to the Messiah of Judaism who’s REAL name above all other names is Yahu’sha, meaning Yahuah is Salvation. I can already hear the pagans grumbling, as they always do, “Yahu’sha” is not a name mentioned in the Bible. Firstly, one would have enough brain cells to know the New Testament was created by the pagan Romans after 312 AD. They had a good decade or more till they convened two separate councils at Nicaea, Italy to decide what they as pagan’s would have in this NEW RELIGION THEY WERE INVENTING CALLED CHRISTIANITY. These were very wicked men who’s goal was simple to protect the Roman Empire from the Jews who’s faith was making headway to replace their demonic multi-god worship with One True Father of all Creation who incarnated into the body of Yahu’sha Messiah. These pagan’s had no working knowledge of the intricacies of the Hebrew language and had no desire to preserve the name of Yahu’sha. The Roman/Babylonian Whore/Harlot system created their own demonic replacement name for Yahu’sha, which was neither a translation nor a transliteration of the true and Kodesh name of the Jewish Messhiah. Yahu’sha Himself prophesied of the LAWLESS ONE was to come saying, “One will come in his own name and he you will accept.” JOHN 5:43 This “one” that has been accepted is none other than the false Messiah, the invented Roman Messiah named J’Esus, named after Esus.

Long before before there was the diabolical pagan Roman invention of Christianity there was the FAITH ONCE HANDED DOWN FROM THE SAINTS/APOSTLES/FOLLOWERS WHO KNEW YAHU’SHA THE MESSIAH IN REAL TIME. THEY ATE WITH HIM, WERE HEALED BY HIM, AND WERE PHYSICALLY TOUCHED BY HIM unlike the mythical satanic invention of The Babylonian Catholic Whore who birthed a Harlot offshoot called Protestant Christianity, whom the Catholic church calls it’s wayward Harlot Daughters that it welcomes with open arms back to the Mother of all Harlots Catholic Church.

The demonic hijacking of the true faith by pagan Rome became what John the Revelator called “The Whore of Babylon sitting on the 7-hills of Rome” that has it’s origins in 312 AD with the Roman Emperor Constantine and his faked conversion which was part of his crafty satanic plan to replace the true Jewish faith with a Hellenized (Hell inspired) abomination which was nothing more than a hostile, and murderous takeover of the Jewish Natsarim faith thus birthing The Catholic (Universalism) One World Religion that was also prophesied to come. Hundreds of years later along came Martin Luther and brought about the Reformation that created the Protestant Church’s that broke away from the Catholic Universalist (One World Religion). Sadly, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree and they continued invoking the name of Satan through the name “Esus” with the letter “J” tacked onto the front of it making it “J’Esus/Jesus”. They had their chance to return to the truth of His Blessed Hebrew Name Above ALL Names, but they didn’t. They continued to embrace the lie and be damned and that’s why they are to prophetic fulfillment of the Harlot daughter of the Whore of Babylon. The Protestants continued to stumble blindly in the “mystery of iniquity” preaching the doctrine of demons that the followers of Protestant Christianity no longer were under the Law, but under Grace where they continue to this day to forsake the Commandments, much less the 613 of the faith of Yahu’sha. The blinded ones read what the true Messiah Yahu’sha said, “If you love me, keep my Commandments”, but in their blinded “strong delusion” confusion they do not even consider this new Commandment straight from the Messiah Himself. Yahu’sha never said it was okay to eat swine. The “Under Grace Doctrine” is the “mystery of iniquity because mysteriously some how the Law was abolished, yet confusingly Christians seem to understand that they have not been given license to murder, lie, steal, worship idols, etc., etc. They seem to think the 10 Commandments they are to keep, except for the keeping of the 7th Day Sabbath that they still break by keeping the pagan Roman sun god Mithras Sun-day Sabbath which IS NO SABBATH TO THE ALMIGHTY YAH, BUT AN ABOMINATION TYPE OF SIN THAT IS GOING TO CARRY THEM ALL TO THE LAKE OF FIRE AND THE DESTRUCTION OF THEIR SOULS. Some say worshipping on the Sun-day sun god Mithras demonic sabbath is part of the MARK OF THE BEST SEAL in the forehead and the right hand as your forehead part of your brain is the part of the brain where you understand right from wrong and make your choice to do right or wrong, and the right hand are those right or wrong deeds being carried out physically through faith–If you have no works of fulfilling the 613 Commandments your “faith without works is dead”.

I’m here to tell you that such demonic faith anti-Law Keeping with no works (fulfilling Mitzvot) your is already soul dead in our Heavenly Father’s eyes, as it’s never been awakened. You folks know the truth, but you sell the gospel so you can live a lavish and luxurious lifestyle. The apostles gave warnings about those who ask for money and instructed the sheep to put them out. Mr. Marcus Lamb, and Jezebel Lamb with your painted eyes, and super thick panstick makeup, and wearing of clothing pertaining to men. Oh, Yes, Jezi’bel/Iso’bel/Isus’bel/Isous’bel Scripture IS VERY CLEAR ABOUT THE Jezibel spirit, and the “painting of the eyelids”even as far back as the Book of Henok (Enoch), the great grandson of Noach/Noach. There is only one reason women paint their faces and that is to give the impression of sexual arousal to men. And to think that the world’s best known name in sinful makeup for women’s faces is Avon Cosmetics Company!!!! Want a terrifying revelation on the prohibition of women wearing makeup that will make you dump all that stuff in the garbage? It’s no coincidence that the leader of women’s makeup in the world has the name “Avon”. Look up the word “Avon” in your Strong’s Concordance and you’ll get enough of a fright that have you running to the cold cream jar to get that satanic paint off your face so you’ll look like a set-apart woman of faith instead of looking like a painted street whore. The Father is very clear about women painting their eyes and you know this Joni Lamb, but you continue in this behavior with no shame. Look at the Ultra Orthodox Jewish women. Nobody has to guess if they are a believer or not because they look like “godly” women as a testimony for all to see and you look like a street walker next to them. Look at the women of the United Pentecostal Church who do not paint their faces like Jezebel, nor wear costly array, or men’s clothing. They keep their hair style very modest, not hanging loose and wild to draw the attention of men. Read the Scripture and know that “God” is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow, and He still hates the appearance of sin.

In training to become a psychologist we take a similar approach as the Scripture verse above. Our struggle, so-to-speak, is not against the flesh and blood person, but we call out inappropriate behavior manifesting in the individual. We gently try to present guidance like placing a sign post before the individual that says, “This Way”, not that way.

Yesterday, on September 22, 2020 I contacted Joni Lamb of the Daystar Christian Television Network as I had seen an episode of her Table Talk interview format program where she mentioned what I thought was my unique life story. Only having found an email address for a “Barbie Harris” assistant to the Senior Producer of Joni Lamb’s Table Talk Show. I am assuming Rose Howard to still be the Senior Producer of the Table Talk show unless she has been replaced since 2016 by Executive Producer, Joni Lamb herself.

The email trail, so-to-speak, seems to have passed only between Barbie Harris and Joni herself as the reply I received seems to be evidence of. I will place a copy of the email I received at the end of this blog entry.

Basically, what I got from the reply is that they informed me it was not my unique story that Joni Lamb reference, but that of another person with a very similar story to mine! hmmmm… Barbie Harris went on in her reply to me to not reveal the identity of this said individual, but told me:

“In regard to the person Joni Lamb referred to on her program, though it may have sounded like your story, it was not you.  Joni Lamb has met this man and even had him on her program a few years back. “

In my reply I didn’t bother to address the fact that neither Joni Lamb or Barbie Harris address any request in my letter. The reply from Barbie that was passed by Joni Lamb for approval as you can judge for yourself appears to ignore my request to come on the Table Talk show to be a part of the series concerning sexual identity. The dismissal sentence basically said in other words, “We are not interested in having you on our show due to the fact you have already had plenty of exposure by being interviewed in your lifetime”. How else would you understand the reply of Barbie Harris where she wrote to me:

“It sounds like you have already achieved many interviews and exposure in your lifetime.  We pray that you will find Jesus the Son of the Living God as your Yashua.”

Not only is Barbie Harris blowing me off with Joni Lambs approval, she also received the approval to insult my Jewish faith by going further to say:

“We (speaking on behalf of Joni Lamb and herself) pray you will find Jesus the Son of the Living God as your Yashua.”

What insulting gall to say such a thing to me after I wrote to Joni Lamb with a brief biography (see letter below) where I wrote of becoming a Pentecostal minister at the age of 18, also making mention that I have since become an Orthodox Jewish Messianic minister (since the truth was revealed to me back in the year 2000.

I am ONLY testifying to what is blatantly obvious to anyone (even a child) who would read Barbie Harris and Joni Lamb’s disappointing and insulting reply/dismissal.

Is this representative of Christians respect and blessing the Jewish people of Israel??? I’m asking a question, not making any judgement.

Adonai Alaheinu Melek HaOlam YHWH has already given me a prophetic judgement to pronounce, but like Abraham asked for YHWH to spare the inhabitants of Sodom for the sake of a few righteous souls I have asked the Father to please allow me to not yet pronounce the prophetic judgement to Joni Lamb until when and if she responds in a fashion that lines up with the Word.

To me, it is inconceivable how Joni Lamb will have people come on her Table Talk show that are still involved in the sin of the homosexual lifestyle, but they refuse someone like myself??? In bringing up this matter with Rabbi that is over me his first reaction was to shake his head slowly in disbelief at such an insult and dismissal in their letter of reply.

That’s where I’m going to leave this for the moment until and if I hear back from Joni Lamb and Barbie Harris.


Arleen Phyllis Hogan-Hickey

The Mother of My Unborn Children

I guess I should explain that subtitle. When I’ve told the story to people about the “mother of my unborn children” it confuses them, but that is how I think of Phyllis. She was to be my wife and have my children. My children never got to come into this world because she left me. I’ve had some very low moments in this lifetime because those dreams were crushed. People will say to me, “Why didn’t you just move on and find another girl?” That is what people of the world will ask, but he who has the Words of G_d written on his heart follows another set of rules.

I may not have been very observant and knowledgeable of the written Word, but so father Abraham kept the Torah perfectly our sages say even before the Torah was given much later to Moses to give to the people. His Word is written on the tables of our heart, but because our hearts are deceitful our Abba had to give them to us on tables of stone for us to look upon, similar to the tzitzit He commanded us to wear as visual reminders of His Commandments.

My Scottish ancestry and Jewish ancestry both are in agreement that once you promise yourself to someone it carries the same weight as marriage and you may respect a woman as your wife with full sexual privilege’s. Worldly ways crept in during the last few hundred years and many people don’t see things that way anymore, but G_d is the same today, yesterday, and tomorrow.

I’ll probably repeat this part later in my recounting, but before my family ever moved away from Kentucky to Florida in 1979 Phyllis and I agreed to wait for each other till we were old enough to get married. Even though just a couple generations before us folks got married at 15 I was under the impression that we had to wait a few more years, but we were in love and we were sure we were meant for each other. Instead of an engagement ring I gave her a gold engagement bracelet with a promised that I’d return when I was 18 and we could be legally married. I moved back when I was 18 for 6 months and ended up returning to Florida because things didn’t turn out the way I hoped.

I can hear the haters right now saying mean things like I should have forgotten about her long ago or that I’m obsessed. Naw, that ain’t it. I simply fell in love with the girl that G_d meant for me and for some reason I’ve yet to figure out He didn’t allow me to keep her in this life. Real love never fades.

Phyllis reached out to me back in 2008. Herself and a co-worker told me how miserable she’d been in her marriage to a very abusive and controlling man. I told her that I felt bad for her situation, and I reminded her that all things happen for a reason, but that I wasn’t trying to say anything negative like that’s what you get for not marrying me. I just tried to be supportive and asked her if she felt she needed to get away from him. She said she was too scared to leave him as he micro manages every moment of her life, never allowing her to have a car, and not even allowing her to walk across the parking lot with co-workers to have lunch at the Diary Queen. And it gets worse. The only place she could have her hair cut was at her brother’s salon on the one day a week the salon was closed and he would demand that the lights not be turned in the salon as to not attract men looking at Phyllis through the window. I can only imagine the hell she has suffered with Patrick Hickey. Phyllis told me that she was afraid if she ever tried to leave him that he would kill her. That’s about the time she stopped communicating with me. If anything ever happens to Phyllis everyone will know who did it because all her family has been witness to his craziness. I hate to see the sweet girl I loved trapped in a hell like that with an abuser, but I’m unable to free her. I can only pray that Patrick softens in his old age and stops abusing Phyllis. I just hope she has been able to hold onto herself and he has not completely psychologically destroyed her. If one day he dies and she is free of him I’d hope to meet the sweet girl I knew long ago again.

As I mentioned, I began keeping a journal at age 12. By the time I began writing my life story in 1990 I had a pile of journals. They became a helpful source for remembering a lot of facts and dates. The writing of my life, or memoire took a creative turn several years to become a novel based on a true story. A publisher who had read some of my online story expressed interest and supported me in the creative novel approach where I incorporate my faith in re-incarnation. That’s all I will say about that for the moment.

In 1977 I began attending Alex Barrett Middle School. I was 14, and Phyllis was 14. The following school year Phyllis began attending another school, but just a week into that new school year one of my friends named Sammy Murphy came to me with a note from a girl he said called him. I called the phone number on the note and it was Phyllis to my pleasant surprise. We began talking on the phone daily and one day I told her I could ride my bike over to her house and bring my yearbook and we could go through our memories of our past school year together.

In my minds eye the memory of that September 1978 day we met again plays over and over like one of the best scenes from a favorite movie. I can still see it all in great detail with me sitting on the left side of the swing and her on the right. I already knew that first day of our reunion that she was the girl meant for me. That day lead to many other days that I’d ride my 10-speed bike over to her home. Her mom and sister Linda would always be there and sometimes her brother Tim would pop in and out. Zina and Joan the older sisters of Phyllis were already living on their own.

During the nice weather of summer Phyllis and I would sit out on the front porch of the house on what her mother would call “the sparkin’ bench”. Some days we’d go for walks down her block and over to the campus of the Sacred Heart school where there was an old cistern under a tree that was covered with a large concrete slab and we’d sit there on the slab and talk. We fell in love. I could spend hours not even talking, but just gazing into her eyes.

For Christmas 1978 I bought her a Krementz gold bracelet for a gift that symbolized an engagement ring that fit over her wrist instead of her finger. I was too afraid to buy a ring just yet, even it was a promise ring so instead I gave her a promise bracelet.

The following spring my mother did something nice for us for my 15th birthday. She took took Phyllis and I out for my birthday dinner at a fine hotel across the river in Indiana. Phyllis and I sat at a separate table from my family. It was like our first official chaperoned date. I remember that night so well, sitting there with her in the warm glow of candles the the table and how grown up and beautiful she looked in her dress. I felt grown up. I guess at age 15 we were. While times and customs change over the years I realized that in the older days many people married at age 15 and younger. My aunt Mary was married at age 13.

I could already see our future together. My plan was to finish high school and then we’d be married. We’d both go to college together and then 5 years into our career we’d begin our family. I was so happy and so was Phyllis. She fulfilled me with the love that made up for all the ugliness of my childhood growing up with an abusive alcoholic mother who never loved me. Everything seemed to be going along perfect and then my mother suddenly met a man and remarried and announced we would be moving to Florida. I was in shock.

Looking back now, I felt so helpless. There was nothing I could do but to go along with my mother’s plans. Had I not been such an abused and beaten down boy that was afraid to even imagine rebelling I would have probably thought of getting Phyllis pregnant so my mother’s plans to move us to Florida would have been stopped and my relationship with the girl who had won my heart would have remained to this day.

When you are the child of an abusive alcoholic you become mentally trained to NEVER step out of line and cause your mother even a hint of trouble or the next time she gets drunk she is going to take out all her wrath upon you. This happened to me over and over as a child as long as I can remember. I have a memory of when I was 6 years old when she was blaming me for all her troubles. I remember we were in the kitchen of our home at 3107 Verne Court where I grew up. She angrily told me she could see my father in my eyes when she’d look at me. Apparently she must have hated my father because she divorced him the year earlier. I’ll never forget how rejected and abandoned I felt as I stood blocking the front door of our home so my Daddy wouldn’t leave. As he was coming to the door to leave for the last time I pleaded, “No Daddy, please don’t leave me!” He said, “Get out of my way boy!” as he shoved me away from the door and I never saw him again. It wouldn’t be till 7 years later when I was 13 that my drunken mother who was beating me over the head with a bottle would reveal to me that he was not my real father, but another man was and she proceeded to drunkenly try to contact him on the phone to reveal for the first time that she was pregnant when they divorced and she’d had a son by him. My eyes memoried the page number and the the family name and address in the phone book. She spoke to his mother telling her the truth, but never spoke to my dad David on the phone. The next day, of course, when she was sober I dared never bring up what she’d told me while abusing me the night before. When you are the child of an abusive alcoholic you know if you are to dare to bring up anything up to them when they are sober that they did while drunk you are going to have hell to pay the next time they get drunk so I forever kept my mouth shut and I never sought out my biological father till another 12 years. I was so happy when I did meet him and got to have a relationship with him for the next 15 years before his death because he was a loving, kind, and humorous man. I missed out so much on not getting to grow up with his love and guidance.

Well, um…alright…dry my eyes and lets get back to the story at hand. Phyllis and I knew we were helpless against my mother’s plans to go to Florida so we spent the next few months saying our slow goodbye till we left for Florida in the fall of 1979. I was very heartbroken and I know it sounds extreme, but I poured out my heart to Phyllis everyday in letters that were never less than 7 pages back and front. I lived to go to the mailbox everyday when I got off the school bus to see if there was a letter from Phyllis for me. Back on those day of 1979 phone calls cost a large amount of money that you are charged by the minute and an hour phone call would put another $20 dollars onto the bill so letters were the mainstay of our continued relationship.

Apparently, I’d committed a cardinal sin by describing the figure of a girl that lived in my neighborhood that waited for the school bus with a group of other kids from the neighborhood. I thought nothing of mentioning her, but I guess I was blind to understand it made Phyllis feel insecure. Before I knew it Phyllis had begun telling me in her letters about a Native American guy who would come into the ice cream parlor job she had and he’d talk to her and try to ask her out on a date. I thought nothing of it because I had complete faith in her love for me. Then one day she wrote to tell me he’d asked her if he could take her to a carnival nearby and then I began wondering why she was telling me this. To my horror it wasn’t much longer after that when I received a letter from her that said she wanted to break things off with me. I immediately called her on the phone, but she refused to talk to me. I called back begging her to talk to me numerous times, but she would hang up on me. I didn’t understand and couldn’t understand. The only person that had ever loved me had now abandoned me. That day I became emotionally devastated and tried to commit suicide. While I was in the hospital recuperating my mother called Phyllis’s mother to tell her what her daughter had done to her son. After returning home from the hospital Phyllis finally agreed to talk with me. I assured her I had no idea that mentioning some girl had upset her and that there was no other girl for me but her and I begged her not break things off with me. After several days of pleading phone calls she finally agreed to take me back and hope returned to my heart.

Christmas of 1980 we traveled back up to Kentucky and I got to see Phyllis. My mother wasn’t always abusive to me. She helped me purchase an engagement ring for Phyllis and I was going to give it to her, but something happened that shocked me to my core. She wasn’t sure she wanted to continue our relationship and I spent a whole day at her house talking with her and reassuring her of my love. Her mother needed to run out to the grocery for a bit and left us in the house alone–a first. Phyllis asked me to come up the stairs to her bedroom and I didn’t think nothing of it as I’d been there before when her mom was home. I was thinking maybe now would the time that I’d ask Phyllis if when her mom came home that I might ask her if it would be okay with her that we became engaged to be married. I was ready with the ring in my pocket, but what happened next made my jaw and heart hit the floor. Phyllis laid herself across her bed and said, “Make love to me”. My mind really goes blank now as to what I said next, but I can only think that it has to be something like saving that for our wedding night. I couldn’t help the feeling, but in that moment of her asking me to do that I felt as if she became the girl I didn’t want to marry.

I still haven’t figured out what was going on with Phyllis for her to act the way she did telling me about other guys coming around like she was trying to provoke me to jealously. I Phyllis I loved I trusted with a pure heart and I wasn’t thinking she was trying to make me jealous. I felt more like she was a victim of guys hitting on her. I never got to surprise her with the engagement ring and I still have it.

That next spring when I turned 18 and went to live with my grandmother I took the engagement ring with me in hopes that Phyllis and I would rekindle our love. We began talking on the phone and I was trying to ease into us mutually deciding on getting together for a face to face eventually. I guess I was moving too slow, but when you’ve had your heart broken by somebody you sure don’t want get your hopes up again too quick. One evening with no warning Phyllis and her sister Linda showed up at the farm. They didn’t know how to open the gate at first and my grandmother became very defensive and forbade me to go to the door to welcome them in. I was so well-trained to obey by my abusive mother there was no way I was gonna go against my grandmother’s wishes even though I saw no harm in going out and letting then in. I didn’t disobey my grandmother and they finally left. I thought I’d call her the next day and explain. I think the whole thing was just mentally overwhelming for me because while I remember that night I can’t remember what transpired afterwards. I think my grandmother felt Phyllis would take me away from her and she needed me to help her on the farm and she wasn’t about to lose me to a girl that had already broke my heart so bad that I was hospitalized for a suicide attempt. I think my grandmother was just protecting me and didn’t want me even talking to her on the phone anymore. Things thereafter soured between me and my grandmother. I found out that Phyllis up and hastily married someone else the next month in May and I was just done. I stayed with my grandmother another 4 months and then returned to Florida where my life began to fall apart.

To be continued…..14 September 2020

16 March 2021 – I’d kinda forgotten about continuing this writing. Today I was listening so some old country music, Hank Williams, Ernest Tubb, Jimmie Rodgers, and it got me to thinking about Phyllis. I hope she is doing okay. I know she has had a difficult life with that man she married. I know it may not be right to think about the day she may be free of him, but I don’t wish anything like that. I just know our heavenly Father has a plan and I wonder if His plan includes that I’ll ever see Phyllis again. I often think of her being free again and we meet and we just simple pick up our happy days as if no time has ever passed. Love doesn’t allow you to remain upset about disappointments. You just continue to love and respect and make every moment a good one. I just noticed the date. Tomorrow is Saint Patrick’s Day. I hadn’t yet met my father when Phyllis and I knew each other. I search him out when I was 25 and found out that I’m part Irish, mostly Irish, I guess. My dad’s great grandmother immigrated from Tipperary, Ireland. On my mother’s side my great-great grandmother was Scottish, but they had all left Scotland after the battle of Culloden in 1746 for safety in Ireland because the British were genociding many of the Scottish. Well, Happy Saint Patick’s Day little red. I hope to hear from you again one day.


Ezekiel 3:17 β€œSon of man, I have made you a watchman for the house of Israel (the Lost Sheep of Israel). Whenever you hear a word from My mouth, give them a warning from Me.Β  If I say to the wicked man, ‘You will surely die,’ but you do not warn him or speak out to warn him from his wicked way to save his life, that wicked man will die in his iniquity, and I will hold you responsible for his blood. But if you warn a wicked man and he does not turn from his wickedness and his wicked way, he will die in his iniquity, but you will have saved yourself.”


Yeshua the Messiah said, “He who loves his (homosexual) life shall lose it. He who loses his (homosexual) life for my sake shall gain his life”.

Of course, I added the word “homosexual”, but it stands as Yeshua was talking about people’s lives of sin, any sin including the homosexual lifestyle.

There is no such thing as “gay pride”. It’s an illusion that is no different than someone who is divorced and remarried is living inside the intentional sin of adultery. Christian teacher Paula White comes to mind. Can Satan quote Scripture? Does Satan know Scripture backwards and forwards? Can people like Paula White preach and teach Scripture all day long while being dead in her sins? Yeshua spoke such people as Pharisees that teach that other people keep G_d’s Laws that they do not keep themselves. You are fooling yourself if you promote the idea of gay pride. It’s a disgrace (dissing of G_d’s grace concerning your sinful condition), not a thing to take pride in. You are trying to take pride in something G_d’s word say’s is sexual sin.

Homosexuality is one of those “thorns in the flesh” that Yeshua described when talking about the parable of the seed sower. Homosexuals are those where the seed (the Word of G_d) fell among the thorns in the heart of the person struggling with same sex attractions. They want desperately to believe they were somehow born gay. Sorry Lady GaGa, nobody was born gay as if there is a gay gene or something. They may want to believe in G_d, but the “thorn of homosexuality” chokes them and they walk away from G_d and many create their own religion or adopt some type of spirituality that tries to make them believe G_d embraces them as homosexuals. This is a lie from the pit and exactly what Satan wants you to do is believe a lie, reject G_d’s Word, and lose your soul.

Yeshua the Messiah said, “He who loves his (homosexual) life shall lose it”. I added the word “homosexual”, but it stands as Yeshua was talking about people’s lives of sin, their sinful lives that have become their chosen lifestyle, such as the sin of homosexuality is. Homosexuality is one of those “thorns in the flesh” that Yeshua described when talking about the parable of the seed sower. Homosexuals are those where the seed that fell among thorns and because they want desperately to believe they were somehow born gay as if there is a gay gene or something they may want to believe in G_d, but the “thorn of homosexuality” chokes them and they leave G_d. Don’t do it! This is exactly what Satan wants you to do is to reject G_d and loose your soul.

FOR THE MAN STRUGGLING WITH HOMOSEXUAL ATTRACTIONS HE MUST FIRST KNOW THAT HOMOSEXUALITY IS A RE-INCARNATION PHENOMENON, and this has always been the position in Judaism. No so-called “conversion therapy” is going to work. The only conversion is a renewing of your mind knowing you are a soul and your body is simply a temporary vehicle for your soul to navigate and fulfill G-d’s plan for your life.

Before you were born you contracted to be born with same sex attraction as a test for a small minority of very advances souls. Your same sex attractions are based in re-incarnation bleed over from your most recent past life where you lived as the opposite sex.


The sages of Judaism have alway known this to be the case in instances of homosexuality, and it’s companion transsexuality, the latter being a more concentrated version of former. The world offers all other kinds of pseudo science explanations for this spiritual issue. Satan wants you to believe you were born this way like you are a different human species.

Anybody is capable of sexual sin. Human beings love to experiment. Men in the ancient world who’s lives were not influenced by G-d had no moral compass to inhibit their sexual exploration. It’s only normal and sensible to know that a man knows what feels good sexually to another man and there are those who adopt a homosexual lifestyle not because they feel the were born that way, but it’s a more attractive way to have sexual needs met without all the restraints that marriage to only one sexual partner presents for their sexual appetite.

I have interviewed men who are so sexually promiscuous that they have hundreds of sexual partners in the span of a year. The Internet has facilitated the ease of instant and quick sexual hookups that may only need about five minutes of contact to bring sexual relief. Having sex with a completely new person every time is super addictive to the brain of a man who has a sexual thought every 6 seconds. It all has it’s foundation in what I call testosterone poisoning. Men suffer from their high levels of testosterone.

The homosexual man (or transsexual man) has just left their last life as a woman, and it affects their current life as male. Except for the severely closeted homosexual, I have NEVER met a gay man that doesn’t have a feminine personality. Why is this? It’s simple. As I tell you. They are experiencing re-incarnation bleed-over from their immediate past life as a female. The same goes for lesbians who’s same sex attraction is organic to her immediate past life a male.

Past lives and their effects on the present lifetime should be embraced for the positive influence they have, but according to Torah not all things life puts in our path are to be embraced, but they are circumstances given to us for the growing and elevation of our soul as it incarnates time and time again into male and female bodies to be able to fulfill all the Mitzvot (some for only men and some for only women).

You might be saying, “Well, that’s Judaism, and I’m NOT Jewish!” G-d created his Law for all of His human family, not just for His “Chosen People”. They are only the conduit to bring His light to humanity. In G-d there is neither Jew nor Gentile as we all come from one father and mother. No human’s on this planet came from any other mother or father. We are all one family. Many are called, but few are “Chosen”. So, now that YOU understand that you are a soul that has re-incarnated hundreds if not thousands of time over the millenia why don’t you just come to a place of acceptance and get down to business allowing this re-incarnation positive so that your soul gets elevated to the next level? If you get stuck in the error of the so-called “Gay Pride” lifestyle you are taking your soul backwards and when you die you will get your past life review and will be told you failed and will have to return to repeat another re-incarnation as homosexual. For those who failed their first homosexual re-incarnation challenge the path will become more difficult for the next homosexual re-incarnation. On the second round you don’t get to come back as a attractive homosexual, but you come into the world as a very unattractive, if I can say ugly homosexual, often times even with karmic physical and mental disabilities added to make you path more difficult.

G-d anointed me with a specific ministry to my family. It’s not one of my choosing, but it is a calling, and being therefore called of G-d I submit to His will. Homosexuality seems to run rampant in my family. Maybe it’s a generational curse for something my ancestors did? Seeing that all my ancestors, the Horstmann family are Jewish by birth, but left the truth for the lie may be reason enough for there to be a generational curse on my family. I can’t say that homosexual attraction in and of itself is a curse as it is a re-incarnation challenge, but certainly there are other ways my family has been cursed, but that is a subject for another day

Three of my Kentucky cousin’s suffer from homosexuality. First there is my older male cousin Eddie McCrocklin that repeatedly raped me as a kid. When I was 18 I confronted him about what he did to me as a kid and all he would keep repeating is, “I don’t remember. I don’t remember”. Eddie lives in the closet with his homosexuality and has a long time girl friend named Karen “Susie” Miller who puts up with him for who knows why. Susie is quite mess herself. According to a family member I will not identify, they said Susie was the one who hatched the plan try to cheat me out of my inheritance from my grandmother. She convinced my cousin Donna McCrocklin that if they could get me convicted for poisoning my grandmother that I’d go to prison and not be allowed to inherit thereby my portion of the inheritance would be divided between the other two heirs Donna and her brother Eddie McCrocklin. Susie wanted to get her hands on my inheritance and reportedly was willing to go as far to say she witnessed me feeding my grandmother rat poison. When I found this out I just about fainted from horror. How could anybody be so evil to falsely accuse me of such a thing so they could steal my inheritance?

Cousin William McCarol of Columbia, and Mattie Davis of Louisville are living openly as “proud” homosexuals. Besides being tormented by homosexuality, Mattie (White mother/Black Father) deals with mental disorders and a lot of depression brought on by being abandoned by her mother whom someone told me was my cousin Tammie Horstman who also had another daughter out of wedlock. She abandoned Mattie to adoption because she came out looking fully Black, but her other daughter came out looking fully White. While I’m not sure if Tammie is Mattie’s mother, when I asked Tammie about it her response was to block me on Facebook. Tammie is one of those severely judgemental Christians, the kind that gives Christianity it’s bad name. I went to highschool with Tammie and even then at age 15 she had the reputation of being one of those types of girls that would be “most likely to sex-ceed”. She made lots of overt passes at me during high school and even in church, even though at the time I was engaged to another girl and she knew it. Tammie found another guy to have sex with and her sin was exposed because she turned up pregnant. Needless to say she got booted out of the United Pentecostal church and now the shameful repercussions of her bad choices continue to follow her the rest of her life. She’s created the image she is a changed woman and another church took her in, but Tammie is a worse sinner now then when we went to high school and church together. I’ve tried and tried to get through to her, but her mind is made up about how she has been brainwashed by Satanic Christianity. She thinks she has the truth, but G-d says differently and has sent her a “Strong Delusion” to believe the lie, and so she remains involved in the Satanic cult of Christianity also known as The Whore/Harlot of Babylon religious system that is an abomination to G-d and to which the “Jesus” she claims to follow pleads in the Bible, “Come out of her my people”.

Poor William also suffers from severe personality disorders, and crohn’s disease. He’s so bad off that the only job he can hold down is that of an graveyard shift manager at the local Wendy’s Hamburgers restaurant in Columbia, Kentucky. I’ve tried to help William too. Because I live in California where Cannabis is legal he asked me to send him some cannabis as a treatment for his crohn’s disease. It cost me $80 bucks and he said he’d repay me, but then he went mentally off the deep end and said all kinds and obscene and nasty things publically to be on Facebook and then blocked me. I know I’ll never see my $80 returned, but that’s okay with me. It was an act of charity for me in the first place inspired by G-d to help him, so I’m good. The sin goes on his account, not mine. G-d loves William and wants him to give up his sinful homosexual lifestyle, but William is like the many millions of those in the world today that have have been bewitched by the popular modern belief promoted by people like Lady GaGa that they were “Born that Way” as if they are some kind of different human species that same sex attraction is natural for. Well, you have heard that the Devil is a liar. G-d is not a liar and G-d says in Leviticus 20:13 that homosexual acts are an abomination to Him and that those caught doing so are to be thrust through with a sword, executed for their sin on the spot. How lucky is William that Yeshua the Messiah died to remove the letter of the Law that kills (the death penalty for certain sins).

I can only pray that my homosexual cousins Eddie McCrocklin, William McCarol, and Mattie Davis will find my website and read this page, and know that I am reaching out to them in love to help them understand their confusion about their sexuality. It is only through understanding why they have these feelings that they will be able to overcome the sin and understand their true identity as G-d’s Chosen People. The world’s answer is to say you are born homosexual like you are a different species or something. This is simply the big deception of Satan just as he tried to humanize and twist Scripture to tempt Yeshua the Messiah to sin.

Understand that the Bible is true, but you must understand it correctly. Know that sodomy not only pertains to prohibited anal l sex, but all prohibited sexual acts and relations. These Laws are for everybody, not just for those who chose the homosexual lifestyle. Homosexual’s are not being singled out for this sin of sodomy which many people are not aware that includes more than just anal sex.

If you are homosexual you do not understand your struggle and the church is to blame because they do not believe in re-incarnation even though it is a foundational pillar to Judaism and the gospels even give proof that The Savior taught re-incarnation. Since all my family is descended from our Jewish grandmother Susan (Shoshannah Miriam) Morrison who is my great-great grandmother that makes all the Horstmann family and their descendants born Jewish, the Chosen People. Please listen to me family. I am sent from G-d to help you “Come out of her my people”.

Judaism, the religion of the Father and Son, has always embraced the truth of re-incarnation believing that the Jewish people re-incarnate as many times as needed in the body of a male or female to fulfill each of the 613 Mitzvot (Commandments). Since some Commandments are only for men and some only for women you MUST re-incarnate as both sexes to be able to fulfill all these commandments. This is a foundational pillar of Judaism, should be foundational to Christianity too, but as we know, Christianity was a Satanic invention of the pagan Roman’s and is not of G-d. Christians are the descendant’s of Esau (Jacob’s brother) whom Scripture say’s, “G-d hated Esau”. Christian’s have a long history or murdering and executing Jews. While times have changed and Christians are no longer going on murderous genocides of Jews since they were lead by another of their false Messiah’s Adolf Hitler, Christian’s still to this day continue to hate Jew’s and the real Messiah Yeshua said, if you hate someone that you have murdered him in your heart. Just the same as he said about someone who looks at a woman with lustful thoughts it is the same as if he committed actual physical adulterous sex or fornication with her.

Judaism has always explained homosexuality as a man who is experiencing re-incarnation bleed-over from his past incarnation as female. Most of the transgendered people are experiencing the exact same thing. Some people were just sexually abused by an older person that caused them to go down the warped road of homosexuality. I’ve counseled many females who say they were sexually abused as girls and they turned to transexuality as a means to protect themselves from being sexually abused as a woman. Thankfully, many of these women have and are understanding the error of this mental disorder and are going through the long process of restoration of their true identity as female. The same can be said for male homosexuals who have finally fought their way about of mind altering abuse, and societal lies to find their true identity as a child of G-d. It’s all so simple when your blind eyes are open to the truth that can bring about instant healing for homosexuals and transsexuals. The truth may set you free of the sin, but bad habits are hard to break and that is why G-d gives us His method’s to remind us to stay on the straight and narrow path. Two of those methods are the commandments to wear tzitzit and to put on tefillin to remind how to live our happiest lives.

When the Satanic Christian church finally accepts the teaching of The real Savior Yeshua about the re-incarnation of Elijah the prophet as John the Baptist and the re-incarnation of the man The Savior healed who was born blind, then, and only then will the Foolish Virgins Roman/Babylonian Whore/Harlot church world that is deceived with the strong delusion will embrace those dealing with same-sex attraction and gender dysphoria so they can know their true identity that is the TRUE CONVERSION THERAPY that works! Sad to say in all my 20 years of dealing with Christians struggling with homosexuality they will claim to be delivered, but eventually all have fallen back into the sin of homosexuality because they have no real deliverance since they are serving Satan and and a Lawless false Messiah, and not the One True G-d of Israel.




This article as had 79 revisions to date (14/2/2021). Some revisions were minor like typos and punctuation, but a view revisions have created more clarity for the reader, and the uninitiated. If you’ve read this article before do indulge yourself in another sip as this fine wine gets better with age.

Just a bit about myself and my personal experience with transgenderism…

I was born a male pseudohermaphrodite with an XO/XY Mosaic chromosome pattern. I understand and accept that G_d created me a bit different from average human beings who are generally XX (female) or XY (male). I understand and accept I will always be a mixture of both sexes, not only chromosomally, but mentally. Yet, as my diagnosis is “male pseudohermphrodite” where the female parts could never function to reproduce children I understand I am primarily male and thus I should live my life this way. It’s taken over a decade or research and understanding to come to terms with my condition after finding out about it. If it had not been for this extra factor I don’t think gender dysphoria alone would have been enough to convince me to have ever made the decision to have polarized my gender to have lived as female for 20 years of my life. I believe the biological and physical manifestations of my condition happened to push me down this spiritual path of enlightenment about the genderless status of souls and how a re-incarnation contract you make not only reaches into relationships, but also reaches into the condition of the physical body you enter into that nudges you alone a certain path. As Rabbi Akiva, son of converts to Judaism said, “Everything happens for the best.”

Now that I’ve mentioned re-incarnation which is the key to identifying with your true gender let me say this about re-incarnation. In Judaism we believe in re-incarnation, but in a bit of a different way. I won’t go into the in depth particulars, but as we call it, “gilgul” someone’s soul is in more than one place at a time because of it’s sparks. The complete soul (all the sparks) are not all together in one place. Similarly in the Eastern traditions about re-incarnation souls are multi-dimensional being in more than one place at one time. This is the similarity where sparks and multi-dimensionality come together. When we re-incarnate sparks and memories from our past life carry into the next life. Some people are very aware of their past life memories while others are oblivious. In the case of the transgender they are dysphoric about their gender in this lifetime because of the bleed over from their past life as a woman or an additional previous life that all the issues were not worked out as a male having lived as a female in maybe more than one or two lifetimes.

I can only be what I am. I learned the lesson that trying to be something you are not creates great difficulty. One may be able to alter their flesh with cosmetic surgeries that disguise the G_d given creation of our bodies, and for some that may bring a measure of relief from gender dysphoria or some may even claim a “cure”, but surgery nor hormones change the truth of your DNA or chromosomes that will always remind you of the reality you may or may not be attempting to conceal. Transgenderism and homosexuality both are re-incarnation adjustment disorders.

LUKE 8:17 “For whatever is hidden shall be revealed, and whatever is secret shall be known and come to light.”

If feel you are struggling with gender dysphoria why not embrace it as a gift from G_d instead of thinking of it as some kind of curse from G_d or cosmic error? Why try to change your body to live as something you are not that will never be accepted but by a small minority of humans when you can instead embrace the truth of your situation and allow it to be used to your advantage instead of turning your life into a disadvantaged situation of victimhood? Fighting your way out of the misguided programming you have embraced from the transgender movement will only cause more suffering as time goes by if by the grace of G_d you begin to wake up from the matrix and realize your true identity as a being that was created to be part G_d and part human.

PSALM 8:4 “What is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him? You have made him a little lower than the Elohim and crowned him with glory and honor.”

Eight months after my birth I had surgery to bring down an undescended testicles. One testicle was quite normal, but the other was not and because it had developed somewhere between a testicle and and ovary it was removed because physicians at the time felt it would become cancerous. A pseudo vagina with no canal or womb was sewn up and I was raised as a boy and never told what had happened in an effort to allow me to grow up as normal as possible. Thankfully, medical science has progressed a lot since 1964 and it is my hope that babies born today with this condition are not being chopped up based on outdated knowledge. Many of us know this isn’t the case however and many children are operated on without their knowledge or consent in an effort to make the parents and doctors happy.

No matter what surgery I’ve ever had it was not going to change the fact that G_d created me between the sexes perhaps like how He created Adam, as the Book of Genesis says G_d made Adam in His image, male and female made He created him.

Puberty was a nightmare. A very thin boy that was developing a pear shaped body with breasts. In my ignorance and influenced by gender bending figures in the 1980’s like singer Boy George and tv talk shows with female impersonator and transsexual guests on all the time, I succumbed to the lure of the transgender movement. With no knowledge of my birth situation I felt somehow there had been some cosmic error and I should have been born a girl instead of a boy and so I began transitioning to live as female during my last year of high school. I went through the whole process becoming a post-op transsexual and lived that way over 20 years. I tried to be happy and well-adjusted, but the closer I got to perfection live “as” female the more I realized I was only living in an elaborate hormonal and surgical disguise and life as female degenerated into feeling very disingenuine.

At age 40 I’d had enough of the fakeness of it all and revealed to my general practitioner physician I was a male to female transsexual and wanted him to prescribe male hormones so I could return to living as male. He asked if I’d take a chromosome test and when the result came back I was shocked to find out my intersex status, but my mind was made up and I wasn’t going to allow that to detour me from returning to live as male. I had all the evidence I needed through life experience that male had felt more natural than female, and being diagnosed as a male pseudohermaphrodite only gave me proof that I was more male than female. All I can say of those first 40 years of my life was they were good life experience.

To Transition, or Not To Transition, or to Detransition, That is The Question

Am I going to tell you not to transition or to detransition based on my experience or faith beliefs? No. I am not a dictator. I have not been set up as a judge or ruler with any authority over anyone, but I will give you advice based on the understandings of the teachings that come from the extra terrestrial species known as the Elohim/Allahim that created the humans on this planet as a hybrid species of their own and the primate species they found on this planet. If you believe all that exists does so because nothing can become something then what you believe is your G_d-given right to believe. This article’s purpose is to teach you why transitioning to live as a sex other than the one you were born as is not the reason why G_d gave you the gift of gender dysphoria. I am going to explain to you G_d’s purpose in the gift of gender dysphoria that has been bestowed upon you and how to respect that gift.

The Jennings family (not their real name) made a public spectacle out of their son’s transgender experience in a s0-called reality tv show. Their son, known as “Jazz Jennings”, was allowed to indulge feelings that somehow he was a female trapped in the body of a male. Several seasons into the show “Jazz” had a past life regression session with a therapist. Jazz recalled under hypnosis that the most previous past life was that of a male named Cal who was involved in what seemed to be presented as a homosexual relationship. Few extra details were given so we don’t know if “Cal” was a pre-transgender homosexual male. Re-incarnation issues that are not fully addressed in one incarnation get moved to the next lifetime. How long will it be before “Jazz” becomes enlightened and realizes if he would of gotten the correct help he could have grown up as a well adjust boy and enjoy having a family of his own instead of being an oddity for the rest of his/her days. Jazz would do good to understand re-incarnation bleed over like James Leininger’s reaction to his re-incarnation issues. James dealt with identity issues when he was younger that he was a World War II fighter pilot that died after his plane was shot down. James learned to embrace the experiences of his soul, yet also moved beyond his re-incarnation history to embrace his current life as James Leininger.

Rabbi Yosef exactly what is your faith? You are Jewish, Right?

The faith that’s goes by the modern name of Judaism is my faith. Of course, it wasn’t always called Judaism because the faith adopted it’s name from the Tribe of Judah which didn’t exist till a person named Judah was born that was the father of the Tribe of Judah. Identifying as “a Jew” simply means I follow the same faith as the people know as The Tribe of Judah (Jewdah) follow which is simply the same faith that Judah’s father Ya’acov/Jacob, and Abraham, and Noah, and Adam and Eve followed. Depending on which generation we are talking about they would have had another name besides Judaism for their faith. This brings me to where I want to explain “Elohimism”.

The faith in Elohim, Eloah or Allahim, Allah

Many people not familiar with the three main Semitic languages of the Middle East are gonna get all concerned the moment I use the word Allah. I can hear the uneducated right now fussing about me talking about the moon god Allah as they begin to foam at the mouth. These types of people are just ignorant of the fact that in the Middle East many born-again Christians use the word Allah instead of the word “god” when making reference to the Creator. Many Jews do the same because the word “Allah” is not a proper name. Allah comes from the word Elohim which you may be familiar with. It’s just a slight variation in dialects of the Semitic tongues of Aramaic, Hebrew, and Arabic. In you English language Bible you will have the word “god” as a translation of the Hebrew word “Eloah”. Eloah is the singluar form of the plural “Elohim”. Eloah in Hebrew is equal to “Allah” in Arabic. That’s all there is to it. Don’t let anyone else lead you to believing some Allah moon god foolishness.

I guess could call my faith Eloahism, Elohimism, Allahism or Allahimism, but who will know what I’m talking about except for a minority of very advanced scholarly humans. To explain my faith so the average person can understand I call it Judaism. One must understand that when Adam and Eve lived, there was no such thing as “Judaism” since the faith would not be known as Judaism until someone named Judah would be born far in the future. All those who came before Judah had was a relationship with the Creator.

The Re-incarnation Connection to Gender Dysphoria

Re-incarnation is foundational to my faith. In the Torah of my faith it is written that the Creator incarnated into a human body and appeared to Abraham accompanied by two angels that He brought along with Him that were to destroy the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah. This incarnation we accept as a fact from Scripture. It is also written that The Creator incarnated again into a human form and wrestled with Yaacov/Jacob who’s name was thereafter changed to Yisrael/Israel. If my people, the Yahudim (Yudians/Judeans the Tribe of Judah) who are called by my name “Yah”can embrace this fact that it is written then why do they have such a difficult time believing that the Creator would not re-incarnate again into a human body as Yeshua the Messiah to bring about our final redemption Himself? Well, the Book of Daniel confirms that the Messiah will be worshipped at deity and Rashi verifies in the Talmud that the passage in question in The Book of Daniel is speaking of the Messiah, so it leaves one scratching their head why any Jew would reject Yeshua as the Messiah. I’ll just respond to that this way. Christian’s ain’t the only group of believers that are being deceived by the Devil. All of the Torah is tale after tale since Adam and Eve how humanity has listened to the slippery lies of the Adversay and got lead astray into confusion and ultimately sin which separated them from the manifest presence of G_d. (Note to self: Write an article on the difference between the manifest presence of G_d and the omnipresence of G_d)

Re-incarnation is G_d’s mode of operation

Through many cycles of re-incarnation Judaism says a soul must return as many times as needed to fulfill all the Commandments of G_d. The fact being that there are specific Commandments for men, and specific Commandments for women a individual soul must return and live in the body of both sexes as many times as needed to complete all the specific Commandments for each sex. This is how the soul becomes elevated to the level of Nirvana and then does not have to re-incarnate again. If a soul is neither male nor female and the soul is the foundation of who we are then who am I to set myself as a judge as to whether someone should never transition or they just detransition of when Scripture is silent on the issue?

Now, HOWEVER,…having said that, I must explain why not transitioning in the first place and destransitioning can be supported, according to my faith. In each re-incarnation we enter the body of a specific sex for a purpose. To the uninitiated gender dysphoria (and homosexuality) can create stumbling blocks. When one can understand the genderless nature of the soul and the purpose of being born into a certain sexed body the pieces of the puzzle begin to come together. Someone suffering from gender dysphoria (and homosexuality) in the purest sense it is experiencing re-incarnation bleed over from a life lived as the opposite sex. The only difference between a homosexual man and a transgender person is the homosexual has had a less dysphoric experience that allows him or her to more closely identify with their birth sex. The gender dysphoric person is simply identifying more strongly with the sex of their previous incarnation than the sexuality of the sex they used to be.

The homosexual male who does not experience a great deal of gender dysphoria simply accepts he is a male who somehow has a sexual attraction to his own sex and gets on with the business of life. All the while though the homosexual is oblivious to the actual source of his/her sexual attractions as a re-incarnation side effect. It is written, “My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge”.

In everything the Creator allows there is a lesson to be learned. Those who experience the Creator’s gift of re-incarnation bleed over that can lead to homosexual behavior or the severe gender dysphoria bleed over that leads to transsexualism are missing the mark due to their lack of knowledge of who and what they are as spiritual and physical creations of an Elohim/Allahim that loves us.

Transgenderism is not a cure for gender dysphoria. It’s like trying to cure cancer by taking an aspirin. You will still have cancer if you treat that illness with aspirin. No matter how many hormones and surgeries one has the gender dysphoria remains and haunts you till the day you die. There are a lot of people who are upset by what they feel has emerged as a somewhat new phenomenon of child transgenderism. In my own life history when I was just beginning my physical transition at age 19 in 1983 I was shocked to meet transgenders who had began their hormonal transition at age 13 and sometimes younger. Some kids grow up in the fast lane of street life. I thought I was in the fast lane having been exposed to the facts of life in girlie magazines from older brothers, but when it came to understanding gender dysphoria as a kid I was far from the fast lane. In fact, I’d admit to being stalled in the emergency lane where every once in a while a tidbit of knowledge would come my way from passers by. I was what you would call a late bloomer even though man think my transition happened very early in my teenage years.

In the Greek language of the New Testament there are the Malakoi who were the effeminate Greek homosexual men who dressed as w omen who were prostituting themselves. It is written, “the effeminate

If you can accept it, they were the transgenders of their day, and I’m sure it wasn’t just describing Greek guys. I’m sure there were hellenized Jewish men who were malakoi as well. Without the modern advantages of female hormones these malakoi were limited to simply being crossdressers, transgenders, but not transsexuals. Let us be sure though that there were probably some who became eunuch’s because they saw that castration of men caused a certain level of feminization to the body and this is where the words of Yeshua about eunuch’s enters the discussion. I can explain this, but you will have to return for an update to this article as to fully explain why becoming a eunuch is not a defense for living as the sex opposite of that of which you were born is a rather lengthy study that I’ve yet to write. Just wait for it, okay? When I get it all written out I’ll insert it here as the next paragraph perhaps with a new subtitle in bold print about the connection of eunuchism and transgenderism.

As I have said, it is not mine to render a judgement against any individual, but it is mine to lead you to an understanding of your situation, and you are to work out your own salvation with fear and trembling. I think most of my readers would agree that becoming transgendered has only worsened their problems, not made anything better. Those who feel differently haven’t lived the life long enough. Waking up to understand you are living in an elaborate disguise ain’t easy, and how other people view that disguise is hard on the soul, but if you are a seeker of truth, you will find that truth that sets your free from the deception and brainwashing of the identity politics movement that is the transgender movement.

When a soul agrees to re-incarnate on this earth they preplan their whole next life. Transgenders miss the whole point of the transgender/homosexual challenge they agreed to face in their current re-incarnation. You don’t give into the sin, but you overcome it, thereby adding another Commandment (Mitzvah) fulfilled, and you move up the ladder, so to speak, towards Nirvana. In my opinion, which may mean nothing to you, from knowing personally many homosexuals and transgendered people around the world that are blessed beyond understanding with so many talents, that they gained all these talents in previous incarnations, and this could very well be their last incarnation with the hardest challenge challenge of all, the challenge to remain in the body you agreed to be born into for the purpose of overcoming sin and accomplishing more mitzvah’s on the road to Nirvana. Don’t stick your head in the sand and simply life your life for sensual pleasures while ignoring your spirituality, your true identity as a soul taking a temporary ride in a human body. Don’t miss the forest for the trees that are obscuring your view. For now we see through a glass, darkly, but soon we will see clearly face to face. For now we know in part, but with when we move past our lack of knowledge that is the source of our destruction we shall I know even as also we are known. Our physical bodies are temporary illusions from re-incarnation to re-incarnation. They are but the temporary vessels that our true being resides in. To be known as we are known is to understand our true identity as a spiritual being called a soul. The many human bodies we have inhabited will return to the elemental dust from which it came, but the soul is eternally alive unless it is destroyed by it’s Creator.


Don’t be deceived by the myth from the unlearned that Allah is the name of some moon god false deity, and is not the G-d of Israel. I’ve lived in Israel, and I know that many Jews and Christians in the Middle East say Allah when referring to G-d. The word, “Islam” ,is a word that simply means “submit” or submission to G-d. Father Abraham and all the prophets of Judaism as such were Muslim and submitted to the will of Allah/G-d. Any Jewish Rabbi will tell you this. The whole “Allah moon god” thing got started because of the moon that is situated in orbit around our planet. The moon is believed to be a base for the Elohim/Allahim extra terrestrial species that is keeping watch over us. Now, as far as the errors of Muhammad and the errors of Islam, that is another subject for another article….

For the most part, I have now finished my explanation of the transgender and homosexual phenomenon and the rest of this page is just going to be some further reading you may or may not care to read. Just wanted to let you know so if you are tired of reading this page you can now make a run for it and escape to your next interest πŸ™‚

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I was recently inspired by the testimony of a talented young man by the name of Edward Byrd . A friend shared with me a series of interviews Edward had done on the Daystar Christian cable channel in a series that was discussing homosexuality and transsexuality. I’d link to the videos, but as like the real Messiah Yeshua prophetically called out the Christian religion as the “workers of iniquity” who will not have salvation, I don’t want to appear as an accessory to Christianity’s crime of dragging billions of souls to the Lake of Fire. If you want to watch those videos on the Daystar website you know how to find them without me linking to them. If you go there just be on guard concerning of the Jezebel of Daystar that will try to lure you into the “Strong Delusion” of the Roman-Babylonian Whore/Harlot religion of a Lawlessness that comes complete with it’s own false Messiah named Jesus who abolished all the Law nailing it to his cross so the satanically deceived can delude themselves they can be saved while they are awash and luxuriating in sin and abominations.

Please notice that I originally wrote this page on September 11, 2020, the day of remembrance known by all as 9-11 which I think could have some meaning to the taking down of high towers (Strongholds) in our lives. Edward, I know you are struggling, and I hope this article helps you as I know the Satanic Mystery of Iniquity Babylon Whore/Harlot system of Christianity falls short of understanding the issues you suffer from since they deny re-incarnation as something “of the devil” even though they fail to understand G-d re-incarnated Himself to become to take on the human body of Yeshua, as He had done previous when He fought with Jacob/Ya’acov/Israel and when He also took on physical form to wall the streets of Sodom before destroying it.

In my 20 years counseling young men who suffer from Same Sex Attraction Syndrome (SSAD) I have watched as those involved in the religion of Christianity have always struggled, and the largest percentage have returned to their homosexual lifestyle. What does one expect though from Christianity which is a Satanic delusion headed up by a false Lawless Messiah created by the Romans? Re-incarnation is foundational in Judaism, and Yeshua taught it so why do Christians reject it? One answer, …”Strong Delusion”.

The Roman’s executed the real Messiah Yeshua, and resurrected their own new Mithras version named Isis/Esus/Eesous/Jesus. Yeshua prophesied that He had come in His Father’s name (Yeshua, meaning YHVH is salvation), and He was rejected, but one would be coming in the future in his own name, and him the people would accept. He was clearly prophesying about the coming of the lawless Greek imposter “Jesus” created by the Roman’s in their Satanic hostile takeover of Judaism. One wonders why the Roman’s didn’t just give their Jesus horn’s and a pitch fork and tail? I guess that would have been too honest and obvious? Satan is the father of all likes and can present himself as an angel of light. Surely that is what he accomplished fully by becoming the Jesus of the Whore of Babylon religious system of the Roman’s. But, anyway….

Ya’ll go check out Edward Byrd’s music. He say’s the music world wanted to turn him into the next Lady GaGa, but I hear him as the Black George Michael with the voice of an angel very reminiscent of George Michael. Of course Edward is his own special talent and I don’t put anybody before him or compare his talent to anyone else. I think you will hear the similarity to George Michael however. πŸ™‚ Pray for his soul that he will find the truth and get baptised in the only name given to mankind by which we must be saved with the forgiveness of our sins–Yeshua (there’s power in that name). Edward doesn’t yet understand how he’s been deceived by Roman Christianity and he is neither saved or delivered from anything yet, but instead he’s existing within the “Strong Delusion” G-d said He would send to those who reject the truth that would save them.

Are you a Christian who has failed to have victory over the sin of homosexual behavior or do not understand why you feel like G-d must have made a mistake and you are a woman trapped in a man’s body? Christianity lacks the “Key to Understanding”.

I began honing my expertise on the matter of healing those with unwanted same sex attractions and gender dysphoria back in 2000 when I began attending conferences of all the movers and shakers of the ex-gay/detrans movement. Since that time I returned to school to get my Masters in psychology and sociology to better help these folks and along the way received my semikah to be qualified as a Rabbi as well. I’m not big on calling myself a Rabbi, as my Rebbe Yeshua recommended we do not call ourselves Rabbi. “Rabbi” means “teacher” and I’m here to teach folks how to finally be free of unwanted same sex attractions and heal gender dysphoria.

As many of you know I was born with an intersexed condition of the chromosomes (and body), called “XO/XY Mosaicism” that made me what is called a “Male Pseudohermaphrodite”. I did not know this medical fact about my life until my primary physician ordered a chromosome test done in 2004 some 20 years after the fact of my male to female transition. Someone born this way certainly has scientific, documentable, biological, and physical reasons for their Gender Dysphoria. It’s not all just in my head like those who self-identify as trans with no actual disorders. I don’t say this to elevate myself about others who have gone through similar transitions as I have, but I’m just saying there is a difference between someone who is physically intersex and transitions, and someone who transitioned based solely based on “how they feel”.

I did a documentary about my life with Tom Murray called, Almost Myself. I’ll find a link from and post it here soon. MSNBC also did a documentary about my detransitioning. I did one talk show with Maury Povich and that was enough because he was horribly rude and disrespectful. Entertainment Tonight’s Inside Addition did a nasty little hatchet job on me too, but you know what they say, “Bad publicity is better than no publicity at all”. LOL I tried to get on Joni Lamb’s program series called “Table Talk” that I found Edward Byrd on, but they are discriminatory against Jews as if Jews don’t have salvation in Yeshua? I posted a separate article on this website about the whole anti-Jewish, condescending, letter I received from Joni Lamb where she wrote they’d be praying for my salvation and that I’d come to know Jesus. Theirs is a prime example of why Jews have been hesitant now to two centuries to share their true beliefs about Yeshua because Christians hunted us down for extinction. We had to go in the closet, so-to-speak, with our faith. Belief in Yeshua has been the centuries long hidden treasure of Judaism and now is the season when the Jewish people and the Rabbi’s are finally beginning to help the Christians learn about their error of not keeping the Law of which Yeshua said, as G-d incarnate, “If you love me, keep my Commandments”. Christians are the apostate Harlot Protestant daughters of the Babylonian Catholic Whore and are headed for the Lake of Fire, and they don’t even know it because of the “Strong Delusion” G-d sent them because of the evil ways and anti-Torah spirit. Christians are going to be in for a a very sad and rude awakening on White Throne Judgement Day. I will be one who is called to judge them and I don’t look forward to it and that’s why a strive day and night to get to people like Joni and Marcus Lamb to “COME OUT OF HER” before it’s too late. On with my article subject…

Prior uncovering my unknown intersex status I prepared to begin my physical detransition by revealing to my general practitioner doctor of 10 years I was actually a male to female transgendered and I had made a 5-year long careful decision to detransition to live as male again as I’d realized over the 22 years living as female, while very successful, it just was a poor decision I made due to too much influence from the transgendered community and misinformed doctors who promoted the false idea to me that I was something they called a “true transsexual” and only transitioning would cure my gender dysphoria”. Of course it was a false cure, but back then I had no idea a real cure for gender dysphoria existed.

It didn’t matter how perfect I looked or if my sounded perfectly female. Even being married to a man who didn’t know I was transgender didn’t help me feel I had made a good decision to live “as” female. It was more about feeling genuine. Living “as” a woman, was not the same as being a woman. A sexchange operation doesn’t change anyones sex, it just masks it. It’s the pain most male to female transgenders encounter when they finally wake up and realize there is no pot of gold at the end of their transition rainbow. Living in an elaborate hormonal and surgical disguise no longer satisfied my need to feel at peace in my own skin.

Some may say that while I am actually born intersexed I may not truly understand what a transgendered person goes through. but I feel like I have a good idea. Having gone through transition without ever knowing the “corrective surgeries” I had a 8 months of age, I went through my changes just like any regular transgender person I’d ever known and I’ve known hundreds in my lifetime.

When I began this website back in 2004 there were many of you who wanted to shut down my voice, but please don’t try disqualify me based on my non-transsexual status. My transition experience matters. Intersexed Lives Matter! I bring you good news.

The good news is that Gender Dysphoria is actually a gift from “G-d” for you and for humanity. Every gift that our heavenly Father Adonai Allaheinu Melek HaOlam (Lord God King of the Universe) gives us, the Devil will try to twist and turn into something evil, and if the Devil doesn’t do the Christians will. Christians have no earthly idea that re-incarnation is foundational to the Jewish faith. Christians should know better than anyone since they believe that G-d incarnated into a human body that re-incarnation is necessary for their faith to have a foundation as well, but then again Christians are the haters of G-d’s Laws. Their whole faith is based on their false “Mystery of Iniquity” religion. They want to claim that G-d’s Law was all nailed to the cross and they don’t have to follow it anymore like the Jews have to. They are a really confused bunch. Yashua Himself said as G-d incarnate, “If you love me, keep my Commandments”. Many times He stated His Law would not pass away, but because of the lust of their hearts for prohibited foods and carnal pleasures, and the love of money, they dismiss their first love and therefore G-d has sent them a strong delusion so they would believe the lie birthed in their hearts. It’s not like He didn’t explain the whole Catholic/Christian Whore/Harlot iniquitous religious system they are involved in and pleaded with them, “COME OUT OF HER MY PEOPLE”, so they will have nobody, but themselves to blame when they wonder why they were left behind when the Wise Virgins are raptured away as the Law Keeping Bride of Yeshua. Remember the parable of the Wise and Foolish virgins? “Thy Word [Thy Law] is a lamp unto my feet”, and the Foolish Virgins lamps were without oil, meaning they were without the presence of G-d. They were empty vessels/lamps not filled with the oil of the Holy Spirit of G-d, and in such a condition being full of sin Yeshua says, “Go away from me ye workers of iniquity! I never knew you!” The Foolish virgins showed up at the door of the Father’s House for the wedding with their shameful empty lamps and Yeshua directly told them, “I do not know you”, and He closed the door in their faces and they were left in outer darkness surely weeping and gnashing their teeth.

Sorry, about that teaching within a teaching inserted here, but sometimes you just have to give a chunk of back story to understand a concept. The re-incarnation that is foundational in Judaism should be foundation to the Christians too, but they were long ago lead astray by their mother the Catholic Whore of Babylon, but maybe one day they will wake up and realize what was done and how they have been deceived and as the Scripture says, “They will burn the Whore with fire”.

Just so you can be sure re-incarnation is foundational to the faith, lets go through Scripture to see how many times G-d incarnated into human form. For those who lack understanding, “re-incarnation” means incarnating over and over again–more than one incarnation. The Scripture tells that G-d took on human form and wrestled with Jacob and due to that event Jacob’s name was changed to Israel. Also, G-d took on human form when He spoke to Abraham about bargaining down to minimum of 10 righteous in the city of Sodom to spare the city. If G-d re-incarnates Himself as the human wrestler with Jacob, appears Himself in flesh with Abraham before the destruction of Sodom, and does so as Yeshua, then how in the world can the blind Christians not see that re-incarnation is required for their faith or they have no faith? Without re-incarnation you can have no “Jesus” dear confused Christians. One can be sincere about their faith, but sincerely wrong. Truth comes “to the Jew first and then the Gentile” and the “time of the Gentiles” is about over so it’s time ya’ll Foolish virgins wise up before it’s too late for your souls and you go into the Lake of Fire.

Now, I will explain what has happened with the transgendered movement. There are those who became involved in transgenderdism because their birth gender self esteem was beaten down by abusive people in their early lives, and they saw transition to male or female as a means of escape from that person that was made to feel worthless. This goes more so for the females who try to become males as women have always gotten the the shaft in this world because of their lesser than unequal to men status. It’s for this reason many cultures put baby girls to death upon birth because girls were a financial burden on the family as only son’s were to inherit and they were the bread winners while the women just stay home and take care of babies and the housekeeping.

I’ve counseled so many females in my practice who came out as female to male transgendered, only to realize after some time that what they were really doing was escaping from being abused as a female and felt if they transitioned to living as male then they would never again be abused as a female. Disassociation is a natural protective mode we go into psychologically, and it helps avoid abuse, but it not a good way to heal the issues these low self esteem women. It does nothing to help them to thrive in their natural female identity. So they get tough and think transgendering themselves is the answer and of course there is a whole vast community of support out there of other’s suffering the same thing and a greedy medical community more than happy to tell them what they want to hear and take that money.

Sadly, because many so-called transgendereds have been abused by a very ugly and hateful Christianity they cringe at the mention of anything to do with religion. This is why I have come to preach to the LGBTQI community as one of it’s own. Believe me, it wasn’t my idea to do this because the LGBTQI community can be some of the most hateful, ugly, nasty, violent, disrespectual, (etc., etc.) people I have ever encountered. My own homoseuxal transsexual wannabe cousin William Henry McCarol cursed me out, called me the C-U-Next Tuesday word, and even made physical threats to me on Facebook and this after I took money I didn’t have to buy him Cannabis gummies for his Chron’s disease. Because of him I got overdrawn at the bank, but my bank was nice enough to remove the overdraft fees and I’m sure he needs the $80 bucks more than me because they best job he can get is a janitor so I told him to keep the money he promised to pay me back and then when he was done cursing me out and threatening me he blocked me on Facebook–how childish. I have some really mentally messed up relatives I’ve tried to help, but every time I do something nice to try to help one of them it always comes back to bite me in the ass. As is said, “No good deed shall go unpunished”.

My grandmother of blessed memory always said, “If you kick a dog long enough it’s going to bite you.” This aptly describes the LGBTQI community and I understand their pain. It’s no wonder they are so angry and protesting with the ignorant Christians trying to hurt them every chance they get. Judaism and Islam doesn’t treat their gender dysphoric like that. Judaism understands their plight through re-incarnation bleed-over from their past life as the opposite sex, when applicable. In Iran where I have lots of trans friends they understand that the gender dysphoric because they are homosexually orientated, except for a strange few promote the cure for homosexuality as offering their citizens sex change operations to cure their country’s homosexual problem. I don’t think the majority of Christianity will ever come around because they have been cursed by G-d and He sent them a “strong delusion” so they would believe all the lies of the iniquitous Babylonian Whore/Harlot system they love so much more than their first love, G-d.

First, the LGBTQI people must learn that our heavenly Father is not your enemy. All the same rules of sin that apply to the rest of us apply to you as well, so you are not being singled out for anything special really, you just are made to feel that way because Satan is the father of all lies. Satan twists the truth about sodomy (anal sex and the unnatural sex between women) that is a Commandment for straight people to not commit a sexual no-no that is against nature, meaning against the sexual union that fulfils the Mitzvah (Commandment) to be fruitful and multiply. How can men be fruitful and multiply if they are forsaking the natural use of the woman and instead sodomizing her (having anal sex with her), or even forsaking the desire of the woman, and not even having procreative sex with his wife at all because he doesn’t want kids?

Men, due to their high levels testosterone, are nearly born as potential sex addicts who deal with issues of chronic masturbation, infidelity, watching porn, the list goes on. It takes a lot of willpower on the part of a man to restrain himself from the natural motivations of his human body, as it is written, “The flesh makes war against the soul”.

When you allow yourself to stop hating and start loving you will become fertile ground for our Savior to begin wooing you and leading you into a healthy self esteem by renewing your true identity that someone else worked hard to destroy. Renew your mind with the truth and your true birth sex identity, and most of all your identity as a loved child of YHVH, Yahavah [Ya=G-d HaVaH=Love] “G-d is Love”. This is how I vowelize the tetragrammton of YHVH. Here is a video that explains the most logical pronunciation of the divine name of the Father.

Now, that’s what some of the transgendered experience. Other’s report they grew up in healthy, loving, and supportive homes and experience gender dysphoria. These are those I suspect are not dealing with abuse that lead to rejection of their birth gender, but these are those who like myself could be intersex and not know like I didn’t till I was 40-years-old, or as I understand spirituality there are those who are of a “two-spirit” nature like Native American culture explains. “Two-spirit” is simply describing re-incarnation where two lifetimes (incarnations) are overlapping in the present incarnation. In other word’s what many gender dysphoric males experience when they feel like “a woman trapped in a male body” is they are experiencing bleed-over from their last life lived as female that makes them feel that somehow G-d must have made a mistake and they should have been born female. Judaism has given this reasoning and embraced such people for centuries, including gays (males) that are experiencing the exact same thing. Yes, as I’ve already said, being a gay male is no different from feeling like a woman trapped in a male body who feels he/she is heterosexually attracted to what they perceive to be their opposite sex, males.

The Jewish rabbonim (rabbi’s) have taught for centuries also about how the first man, Adam, was originally created as a male/female being in the very image of G-d who possesses the divine attributes of both male and female. The rabbonim say that Adam was created basically as an intersexed being, but then G-d decided to separate the female from the male, taking the “female side” of Adam and forming the woman.

It is for this reason that many Rabbonim I have talked to highly respect my XO/XY Mosaic Intersex condition as a gift from our Creator, with coupled with my other gifts, being empathic, decerner of spirits, seer, prophetic dreamer, I have been prophesied over that I have a very special last of Last Days mission as a prophet to the LGBTQI community and to the Christian church world to bring correction that gets both these communities back on the right track before it’s too late as the coming of Messiah is near. The only difference of opinion I with the rabbonim is I understand the Messiah to have already been identified, and it’s not Menachem Mendel Schneerson, but it was and is Yeshua/Yashua/Yehoshua/Yahushau (I’m not a “Sacred Namer”) Son of Yosef and Maria, cousin to Elizabeth, mother of Yahanon (John the Baptist), who’s Father was Zechariyahu who was going about His priestly duties in the Temple offering incense when it was revealed to him that his wife would have a baby. BTW, their Son John the Baptist was born 6 months before his cousin the Messiah Yeshua and because John’s father would have ONLY been offering incense in the Temple on a certain date because of the priestly service cycle it pinpoints the birth of Yashua Messiah exactly during the feasts of Tabernacles (Sukkot) that would have been in September the year of his birth, and not on December 25th which is actually the pagan Roman birthdate of the sun god Mithras that the Babylonian Whore Catholic church pushed on the world.

It is so difficult to not go down rabbit holes of explaining concepts and back stories from scripture that support the truth of what I’m trying to teach to the transgendered, but I hope you have had eyes to see and your mind is being renewed to understand things in a new light. If you are beginning to understand send me an email [on the homepage of this site] or a note on Twitter @transrepublican or on my Parler @YosefBenDavid.

For many attempting to change the body with surgeries and hormones is very difficult, expensive, sometimes medically dangerous, and it never truly satisfies. Some it seems to help and G-d bless them. There’s nothing in G-d’s word that says someone cannot live a genuine heartfelt transgendered life, but don’t take that is as a Scriptural endorsement from me because there is no Scripture I know of addressing those who feel compelled to take the drastic step of what they feel is corrective surgery to live as the opposite sex. We all need to work out our own salvation with fear and trembling. It’s your soul and not sinning that matter’s to G-d, not what state your body is in. Be assured there will be more people in Heaven with lopped off body parts other than eunuch’s or transgendered folk. Look at all the wars. I think our bodies will be made whole in Heaven from my experience with visions of seeing people I knew that passed over and how they look young and vibrant with their bodies whole again and healthy.

There is so much more I can say, but hopefully this is enough to get you thinking and get you to contact me for further instruction on how to get your life in order whether you want to remain transitioned or detransitioned. I’m here to support you on your journey and hopefully make it a better one. True gender dysphoria as my explanation defines is a gift from G-d to actually help the deceived church world and all of humanity to come to the truth that the soul is neither male nor female and we all re-incarnate as many times as need as male, and female to accomplish all of Allah’s (G-d’s) Commandments. Let’s work together to complete the mission our heavenly Father YHVH who has graciously gifted to us to help the rest of mankind through the understanding that souls have no gender or sex and we do re-incarnate many, many times in male and female lives as Judaism supports.

Be Blessed Dear Ones,
Yosef Yahudah Ben David




Where do I begin to WARN the Christian church world that has fallen away from the first leaders of the Apostolic Jewish faith guarded and taught by the apostles of Yahusha the Messiah, The Son of Yahuah, HaMelek Olam?

Let me tell you right away that the parable of the 10 virgins and their lamps was Yahusha letting us know their would a true and Commandment keeping, Sacred Hebrew Names wise bride that gets raptured while the church world’s foolish bride will be LEFT BEHIND to suffer the plagues put on the Babylonian Whore (Catholicism) and her apostate Harlot Daughters who are both the foolish virgins who have reject the true Holy Tongue names of the Father and Son, Yahuah Melek HaOlam and Yahusha HaMoshiach.

Those are not the only things that are wrong with the foolish virgins who will not be allowed to enter into the Marriage Supper of the Lamb. The Christian Harlot system does not believe in re-incarnation which is foundational to the Jewish faith. Christians will accept that Yahuah incarnated into the body of a man so He could know all we, as humans, suffer physically and emotionally becoming our Passover lamb who’s blood washes away our sin.start with Yahuah incarnating into the man most Christians only know as “J-Esus”. I hyphenate that monsterous name so you could see the name Esus that was used in the Greek as Iesous or Esous which was the Greeks so-called transliterated (sound alike name) for Yeshua, the real Aramaic Hebrew name that is the same as the Book of Joshua (Yeshua/Yashua being the diminutive version of Yehoshua/Yahusha). Now, ask yourself this– Why was Joshua’s name name not corrupted to J-esus, but the Saviors name was when it’s supposed to be the Name above all Names, the only Name given to mankind by which we MUST be saved by the reciting of the name Yahusha in water baptism for the remission of the sin nature and you sins.

Again, ask yourself whyyyyyyyy if they got Joshua’s name correct after transliterating why didn’t they do the same with the Messiah. Well, lets go to the Word.

Parable of the 10 Virgins (and Their Lamps)

Remember: Yeshua Messiah said, “Salvation is of the Jews” (not the of gentiles), and The Jewish Rabbi Sha’ul (known to xtians as “Paul”) who was the student of Rabban Shimon Ben Gamliel (aka Gamaliel), said, “To the Jew first, and then also the gentile. So, the Truth of Salvation comes from the Jew and it passed onto to the gentiles. People like Joni Lamb of Daystar Christian Network should remember such before writing me a hateful anti-Semitic letter that insinuated I need her “Jesus” so I can be saved. Her Jesus is the false Christ that the true Messiah Yeshua said, “I come in my Father’s name and you reject me, but one will come in his own name (jesus), and him they would accept. Yeshua knew EXACTLY what would be going on with the Roman counterfeit replacement for Judaism’s Messiah Yeshua and so He prophesied against the coming of Constantine and his Babylonian Whore/Harlot Foolish Virgin hostile takeover of the Jewish Natsarim’s.

The Biblical Yeshua the Messiah is nothing like the Christian Jesus. For near 2000 years Judaism has known who their Messiah is, but when we tried to teach it to the gentiles the pagan Roman’s executed us by thousands so we shut up to spare our lives. It’s only now that we are on the very eve of Yeshua’s return that Jew’s are beginning to admit our faith in our Kosher Messiah Yeshua without the fear that we will be executed for it. First you executed our Messiah, then you executed us as the Roman oppressors who tore down our Temple, then a couple hundred years later you accomplished a hostile takeover of our Natsarim faith and changed the Truth of G-d into a lie with your false christ and executed more of us by the thousands, over and over again through the years. Along came your “Christian” Adolph Hitler who thought he was going to finish the job and you cheered him on with America even rejecting ship loads of Jewish refugees trying to flee the Nazi’s. When the world saw what the Christian Nazi’s did to us they condemned your actions. All that murderous Jezebel spirit is still alive and well today in Joni Lamb of the Daystar Network. Check out the hateful letter she sent me.

The real Messiah of Israel did not nail His Law to the cross, not “one jot or tittle” of the Law has passed from His Law and this is the grievous error of Christianity. It was ONLY the death penalty of the Law that was required of certain sins that was nailed to the cross. This is why Christianity is referred to as The Babylonian Mystery of Iniquity Whore/Harlot system of Foolish Virgins that WILL NOT BE LEAVING THIS EARTH AS THE BRIDE OF YESHUA. They are confused and think the Law does not apply to them even when Yeshua warned them over and over again, “If you love me keep my Commandments”, even to the point of pleading, “Come out of her my people”. Sellers of the gospel of our Lord like Joni Lamb who hate the Jews and claim they need her Babylonian counterfeit Lawless Jesus are gonna find out exactly how it feels to get left behind and not be attending The Wedding. Sorry, Joni, you are a widow before you even get started. You are the Roman spirit of Jezebel who cruxified our Lord on the cross just like you wanted to murder Elijah the prophet. Truly, I came to you as a Jewish prophet and you made sure you executed me real quick with your nasty, hateful, anti-Jewish letter to me.

It is remarkable that in the Talmud tractate Sotah 9:15 that it is said of the Rabban, “Since Rabban Gamaliel the Elder died, there has been no more reverence for the Law, and purity and piety died out at the same time”. The Rabban was a member of the Sanhedrin and spared Saul’s life on at least one occasion. In Jewish Rabbinic literature Gamliel is praised on one hand and dismissed on the other having been believed to have secretly been a baptized believer in Yeshua as the Messiah.

Truly, “no more reverence for the Law” was pushed by the Roman Catholic Whore and her Christian Harlots and is still being pushed by them today with their false version of the Messiah. Once again folks, Yeshua the real Messiah said, “Come out of her my people!” If you don’t leave the Mystery of Iniquity Babylon Whore/Harlot system you WILL partake of her plagues and probably die in your sins during the 7-year tribulation while the True Bride is enjoying the 7-day wedding with Yeshua in His Father’s house.

I’m going to become repetitious now, but you need to get this understanding in your head because once the Anti-Christ takes over you probably will no longer have access to my website or be allowed to own a Bible.



Wake up and understand that The Savior Yeshua warned us about the Mystery of Iniquity Babylonian Whore and her Harlot daughters.

So many people have so much pride and arrogance in their chosen denomination/sect of Christianity that they do not want to believe that they could ever be in the wrong. The United Pentecostal Church and all the other “Jesus Name” and “Holy Ghost filled” Pentecostal churches of other various names head up the the “Strong Delusion” that G-d said He would send. All Christian denominations were created because each group felt they had “The Truth” and the worst of these is the United Pentecostal’s who actually believe they are THE ONLY ONES WHO ARE ACTUALLY SAVED.

I was called out the United Pentecostal Church (UPC) in the year 2000. I was studying to show myself approved. I was seeking the truth that will make you free. I didn’t make a big exit at the time in 2000 apparently because G-d was still preparing me for such a time as this. When I was called out of the UPC I had been downloading a lot of truth about many of the pagan traditions of Christianity that went against the very Commandments of G-d. I went through a period of intense study for about 5 years and at the end of those 5 years G-d “renewed my mind” as if blinders were taken off and I could now see a truth that was always there, but the “Strong Delusion” G-d sends would not allow me to see what was right in front of me. When my blinded eyes were opened it was all a bit too much for me and the truth was so huge that I had to take a step back for a few years and just stop studying while I allowed these Scriptural truths that were unveiled to me sink in.

Messiah himself warned us against the anti-Christ false religious system that His followers could become in involved in if they were not careful. Over and over He gave these warnings about false Christs, false teachers, and false prophets who would come in His name (or even their own name) to deceive many. How many of you fell victim to these wolves in sheep’s clothing? He also warned about a strong delusion will be sent by the Father to those that reject truth. Now, that seems rather harsh that G-d Himself would send a Strong Delusion amongst the believers??? Scripture was and always has been about separating the sheep from the goats. Are you a sheep gets the blessing or a goat that gets the curse?

You KNOW that part of the truth that many do understand, but they gloss over is that Messiah was Jewish, had Jewish parents and grew up speaking the Syriac Aramaic dialect of Hebrew. His real name “Yeshua” was actually of that dialect as directed by the angel Gabriel to give to his mother Maria, yes, Maria. Her real name was Maria, not Mary, not Miriam, but Maria. With so many long accepted wrong translations of names in Scripture it takes a lot of investigation to SEEK THE TRUTH THAT WILL MAKE YOU FREE.

Yeshua Messiah also spoke the proper Hebrew the language that His Father YHVH gave mankind, known as the Lashon Kodesh (aka Holy Tongue). The real name of the Savior in the Aramaic dialect is Yeshua, but certainly He would have rejected the Greek name of “Jesus” (Iesous/Iesus/Esus) that would have been known as found in the Greek translation of the Scriptures (The Septuagint) as had already been done well over 200 years before His birth. Remember, the Greeks were an abominable invading culture who desecrated the Jewish Temple and as a result the Feast of Dedication (Chanukah) was created. Religious Jews would have rejected the language of the invader, but there were many who were “Hellenized” who didn’t, and there were some who felt that learning Greek was a way to take the Gospel to the world. Bottom line, you don’t take a G_d given name that is the name above all names and change it into another language.

The name “Jesus” was use that has only existed since the 1400’s when the letter “J” was introduced into the English language did not exist in the Greek language, so in the time of the Savior some may have tried to call Him the Greek Iesous/Esous/Esus/Isus/Isis and they probably would have gotten a sharp rebuke from Him to respect His real name given by His Mother, given unto her by the angel Gabriel, and ultimately from G-d the Father. I always use this example: You wouldn’t disrespect the former leader of the Soviet Union, Mikhail Gorbachev. by calling him and English translation of his name, “Michael Hunchback”, would you? You’d respect him and call him by his real name instead of trying to translate it. So if you would pay that respect to a mere man what is it inside you that makes you disrespect “THE NAME OF ALL NAMES, THE ONLY NAME UNDER HEAVEN (not multiple choice names), GIVEN TO MANKIND BY WHICH WE MUST BE SAVED”? ~ Acts 4:11

When Rome switched from the Greek language of the Empire to Latin the celtic god “Esus” (another name for Satan) that became Iesous in Greek was Latinized with the “J” to make “Jesous” or “J-Esus”. It was a long and well thought out plan by Satan to replace the ONLY NAME by which we must be saved and it all began with the translating of the Jewish Scriptures and the books of the prophets like Joshua into Greek more than 200 years before the Messiah would be born. Jesus or Iesous/Isous/Esus/Isus/Isis is neither a translation or proper transliteration as claimed. It’s simply a Satanic lie to get you to speak a name that sounds like a pagan deity. Most of all IT IS NOT THE ONLY NAME GIVEN UNDER HEAVEN TO MANKIND BY WHICH WE MUST ME SAVED. It’s not multiple choice names. There can only be one name above all others, not several. Reject the Greco-Roman-Latinized Whore/Harlot Satanic replacement name before your soul is lost for eternity.

So, every time you utter the name Jesus from your lips you are actually saying a sound-alike name for Satan and our Heavenly Father is not happy about that because in the Book of Exodus He forbade such utterances.

Exodus 23:13
β€œNow concerning everything which I have said to you, be on your guard; and do not mention the name of other gods, nor let them be heard from your mouth.

If you consider yourself a real Christian you should be, excuse the expression, scared shitless right about now because you are a Foolish Virgin with an empty lamp (signifying you do not have the Truth of the Father’s Words/Laws locked in your heart that you might not sin against Him).

The Mystery Babylon system has it’s beginnings all they way back when part of the southern kingdom of Judah along with Daniel the prophet were forcibly carried away and taken into captivity in Babylon.

You may have heard in Protestant church circles that the Catholic church is the whore of Babylon because they worship idols in the church and even had the nerve to delete the 2nd Commandment and changed the 3rd Commandment to keep the 7th Day Sabbath that The Father created for rest from our labors. The Catholic church deleted His Sabbath and created their own for the sake of the pagans who worshipped the sun god (not the Son of “God” on the Roman 1st day of the week when it was mandatory to worship Mithras the sun god. Are you beginning to get a clue as to how demonic this deception has been? I mean after all, we are talking about the Whore Catholic church of which it is believed that the Pope in power at the time of The End will be the false prophet. We already know all Popes are false prophets because the doctrine of the Catholic church declares that each Pope actually becomes changed into “Jesus” when they become Pope. If that doesn’t provide the definition of “doctrine of demons” I don’t know what would!”

While trying to write this I’m really tired and need to rest so I’m just typing out a bare bones warning and will come back and flesh out this blog entry later.

But know…. the Christian church world is the “Foolish Virgins with no oil in their lamps” and they are going to be left behind because they are they were are “workers of iniquity”. Not only will the whorish Catholics and Christians be left behind as part of the Whore of Babylon and her Harlots system, but also Judaism will have many left behind as well as Islam because they have all left their first love, the Word/Law of YHVH’s Torah.

Those left behind are going to be destroyed just after the rapture when Yeshua the Messiah scorches the earth with fire and all those souls will have to wait till the White Throne Judgement where they will be resurrected and judged based on if they rejected the truth I have been sent to witness to them to change their ways. If they were told the truth by myself and others, but rejected it then there will be no hope and they will suffer the merciful 2nd death in the Lake of Fire. It is my hope that this website will stay up during the 7-year Tribulation and when people realized they missed the 1st boat they will right themselves and the Father of second changes, and fourth, and fifth, and sixth, etc., etc., chances will have mercy on them and they will be Elect-ed to go in Rabbi Sha’ul’s resurrection/twinkling of an eye 2nd chance/2nd coming rapture where these who have washed their robes during the tribulation will be joined by Yeshua and the Wise Virgin armies of Heaven, and angels to head to the Valley of Megiddo for battle.

To be continued….maybe….if need be..? Is this enough? Did I get my point across? Email me from the homepage if you have questions.


The UPC emerged out of the Pentecostal movement that began with a Bible school in Topeka, Kansas, in 1901 and with the Azusa Street Revival in Los Angeles, California, in 1906. It traces its organizational roots to 1916, when a large group of Pentecostal ministers began to unite around the teaching of the oneness of God (instead of the Trinity teachings) and water baptism in the name of Jesus Christ (speaking His name in baptism instead of reciting the titles Father, Son, Holy Ghost like trinitarians do).

The United Pentecostal Church was formed in 1945 and was the church of choice for my family. My grand aunt Irene Horstmann told me that her and her siblings were all raised up in Pentecost. My grandmother told me that her mother would have “spiritual meetings” also known as home church. My aunt Irene

While I left the United Pentecostal Church in my official capacity in in 2002 I still attend the occasional services or conferences here and there because someone has to be there to correct them in their errors. I belief this to be a missionary field because The Savior Himself said to such churches known in Scripture as apostate Harlot Daughter churches of the Babylonian Whore Mother church of Catholicism, the Mystery Babylon Whore that left her first love. If you haven’t heard about this please read the Book of Revelation.

At the time of my “official departure” from the UPC I had already been learning many things that lead me to understand that the Book of Acts and the brother James of Yahusha had written about the Gentile converts to the faith to abstain from meat sacrificed to idols, not to drink the blood of animal meat, and they were instructed to attend the synagogue and learn the Law of Moses. What I got from this was that the hijacking of the faith had been hijacked by the Roman Catholic church for evil purposes and even though Martin Luther tried to break away with the Protestant movement they are still part of the Babylon Whore system known as the Harlots Daughters of the Whore because they deny the commandments, deny the true Holy names of the Father and Son, and aren’t even saved according to the Salvation plan as given in ACTS 2:38 supplemented by the order to use the name, not a title, but the name, and the real name, the only name under Heaven given to mankind, no other name by which we MUST be saved found beginning at ACTS 4:11.


Call Me By My Name, Yeshua


Philippians 2:9-11 “Wherefore G_d also hath highly exalted Him, and given Him a name which is above every name (not multiple choice names)[Acts 4:12]. That at the name of Yeshua every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth; and that every tongue should confess that Yeshua the Moshiach is Master, to the glory of Χ™Χ”Χ•Χ”β€ŽΒ G_d the Father.”

The use of any other name than Yeshua, the name above all names, is a demonic deception engineered to take your soul to the Lake of Fire.

Yeshua said, “I come in my Father’s name, but you don’t accept me.” The Sacred Namer’s movement has as many true pronunciations of YHVH as there are many denominations of Christianity all claiming to have the truth when in fact not a single Christian has the truth because Christianity itself, the Roman-created version is a fraud. The various Sacred Namer groups claim to have the true pronunciation and they dare to base salvation on the correct pronunciation. They need to watch this excellent comprehensive video and end their ridiculous quest to claim to have have the true pronunciation.

The archeological find of the real tomb of Yeshua and His family in the Talpiot suburb of Jerusalem forever puts to rest the argument of the true name of the Messiah. In the documentary film by James Cameron the ossuary unmistakably reads, “Yeshua son of Yosef” in the ancient Hebrew as shown in this photo taken from the film where they superimposed the modern Latinized-Greek “Jesus” son of Joseph instead of transliterating as “Yeshua bar Yosef”.

On the ossuary Messiah’s name spelled Yud-Shin-Vav-Ayin, Yeshua. His family would not have carved the wrong spelling of his name on his ossuary. Oh, but there are going to be those who say Yeshua’s family burial tomb is a fake, but that’s ridiculous. They only claim the find if a fake because they do not understand how the “first fruits” resurrection of Yeshua where His bones were left behind differs from the resurrection of Lazarus who wasn’t a “first fruits” and Lazarus obviously lived out the rest of his natural days and died and was buried. Christians, and other naysayers simply do not understand the difference of a “first fruits” glorified body that is a magnificent glorified body that leaves the physical body behind. Christians are gonna be mighty shocked when the rapture happens and the bodies of those raptured flop dead to the ground while their glorified bodies rise up to meet their Bridegroom in the air to go to their wedding.

The burial tomb with Yeshua, His wife, his son, his mother, brother James, and His mother’s cousin and their DNA evidence cannot be refuted. If they had wanted to create a fake tomb around the time of Yeshua’s burial or even hundreds of years later they had no idea about DNA and the bodies buried there for a fake tomb would have been made up probably of bones taken from other graves, but the DNA proves this is not the case. There are no findings about the tomb that conflict with Scripture.

Of course, there are going to be those who want to say you can’t have the bones of Yeshua in an ossuary and have His resurrected body separate from His physical corpse. This is where those people have a lack of understanding. Yeshua was the first fruits of the glorified bodies yet to come. His resurrection was not the same as those of the bodies of Lazarus and the “talitha cumi” girl that were raised from the dead. Being raised from the dead and being “changed in a moment” into a glorified body are not the same thing. These are two entirely different types of resurrections. Lazarus’ natural body was regenerated the same way as someone who dies, leaves their body, and returns to which is referred to as a Near Death Experience. When those with salvation get resurrected they will have a glorified body like Yeshua’s first fruits body. Yeshua’s earthly remains were left behind in the tomb as a corpse and the new glorified body came out of that corpse leaving the corpse to rot. Those who have died with salvation will do the same.

If any of you have seen the silly Left Behind movies you will remember those theatrically raptured disappear out of their clothes, leaving their clothing behind. In the real rapture the human body as well as the clothes will be left behind. Now this is where it gets amazing because this is going to be how the anti-Christ will deceive even the elect, if it were possible. He’s already got you conditioned with the satanic Christian movies to think bodies disappear with clothes left behind in a heap. When the remnant Law-keeping Wise Virgin Bride leaves the earth their mortal bodies will be left behind flopped to the ground dead. The anti-Christ is going to explain their deaths as COVID or something and nobody except my students will understand this. Nobody will know the ‘thief in the night” Wise Virgin Law-keeping bride has been raptured. Anti-christ or his minions perhaps will say these people suicided, and nobody will know with all COVID chaos, and their bodies will be taken away and no autopsy, no viewing by family, no nothing, gone. Just straight into a box and you never see them again.

Most of Lawless Foolish Virgin Christianity, that don’t have one drop of salvation, believe in a pre-trib rapture and when they don’t see it happening to them there is going to be a great falling away from the faith. If I, as a Jew from the tribe of M’nasheh, am granted the honor of being one of the 1200 from my tribe sealed to be left behind to be an evangelist during the 7-year tribulation, it will be the greatest honor. I feel this is where I am headed because it seems nobody else is preaching the truth that I do about the correct name above all names and the pre-trib rapture of the Law-keeping Wise Virgin Bride while all the Foolish Virgins of Christianity get left behind for not keeping the Law and also being baptized in the wrong name.

Before my close, just a brief word about those who will be beheading Christians during the Tribulation for their witness of Yeshua (or aka Jesus). In what are known as the Noahide Laws (please Google it), non-Jews must keep a minimum of 7 Laws of G_d to make it to heaven. I won’t explain Noahidism more, just go to Youtube or Google it and you will find many people talking about how the 7 Noahide Laws for non-Jews is going to be how the anti-christ whom Jews will accept as the Messiah will be beheading Christians for idolatry. Yes, you heard right. There are going to be Jews, not all of them, but some who join forces with the anti-christ and they will be using the Bnei Noach Laws to behead Christians who profess (and worship) Yeshua (or Jesus) to be G_d in a human body. Jews will be following the instruction of the former Rabbi known as The Rambam who said Noahide idolaters must be beheaded. That’s the long and short of it. Do you own research.

Today is the day of salvation. Repent of not keeping the Law. Only the 7-deadly sins Laws were nailed the cross. Everything else is still in effect for Jew and Gentile that comes into the faith. Hopefully “those who are alive and remain” will repent and be re-baptized in Yeshua’s name for the forgiveness of their sins and then they can know that they will be joining those previously raptured 7 years earlier that will be returning with Yeshua at the 2nd Coming with the armies of heaven when every eye shall see him. He raptured His Law-keeping Wise Virgin Bride like a thief in the night and every eye did not see Him then because the rapture of the Bride is not the 2nd Coming . He just slips in and slips out with His bride under cover of darkness, so to speak. Those who survived the Tribulation and finally got the real salvation will be “changed in a moment’ into those glorified bodies that will travel with Yeshua, His Bride, and the armies of heaven to fight at the battle of Armageddon. After the battle we all head to the wedding reception where supper and drinks will be served. The former Foolish Virgins that didn’t make Bride status at least are invited to the wedding supper of the Lamb having finally joined the family.